K.O.R.E.

I have recently launched K.O.R.E. online ministry as GOD has called me to be a pastor.  I’m following the LORD trusting HIM to work in and through my life to bring GOD the FATHER glory, honor, and praise in JESUS’ name…  I plan to write messages weekly and post mostly on Saturdays.  I have written 2 messages one from last week and one for this week.  My hope and prayer is that you will be inspired to grow in faith, hope, and love in your walk with Christ…  I especially want to reach out to those who don’t have a church home.  K.O.R.E. exists for those who are dealing with depression, experiencing mental illness, having suicidal thoughts, have attempted suicide in the past, dealing with oppression, feeling like an outcast, facing health challenges, and/or just feeling overwhelmed in life…  If anyone needs prayer, support, and encouragement feel free to reach out to me anytime…  I will personally respond to you in a timely manner… Come by and visit the website and give me some feedback, leave a prayer request, or express your interest to get involved:  K.O.R.E.

Light Posts

This poem is from my new post Stand at beavoicefororphans (my other blog that you may or may not follow) that you can read in full.  We take a stand against sexual violence…

 

Hidden for only you child hurting for healing to find will find; entering within faith, hope, and love so kind

Quicken for only you child to receive grace, mercy, and compassion combined to bind together with miracles designed to remind of HIS greater Love to you inclined…

Forbidden is sex abuse, incest, pornography, sex trafficking, rape defined

Ridden by GOD Almighty of abusers, incest perpetrators, pornographers, traffickers, and rapists confined

Stricken by GOD Almighty with HIS HOLY terror, PURE fury, All POWERFUL attack, STRONG DEFENSE infiltrate, and WARRIOR FIGHT against these sinners in the hands of an angry GOD quarantined in agony resigned

 

Light posts

At the start

At the end

Turn on shine

As night fall

 

Inspire most

Love impart

To you send

Burn within entwine

For insight call

 

Where darkness pervades all around

Stay where the Light cascades until found

Until sun’s rays fades the black

Dawn of a new day lays foundation back

 

Come home

From above chart

Course to mend

Time to unwind

Be contrite stall

 

Rest alone

Retune one’s heart

With Him to tend

Soul He does find

To dine with your all

 

Where darkness pervades all around

Stay where the Light cascades until abound

Until sun’s rays fades the black

Dawn of a new day lays foundation on track

 

Alive; atone

Near now from afar

Healing begin open

No longer left behind

Builds up aright Refuge walls

 

Arrive; shown

Promised land correlate your star

Defeat enemies who contend; always will HE defend

Made stronger in HIS will aligned

Guides through breakthrough fight the good fight past what appalls

 

Where darkness pervades all around

Stay where the Light cascades be still in HIS renown

Until sun’s rays fades the black

Dawn of a new day lays foundation in covenant contact

S.T.A.R.T.S.

Start…

Dictionary.com has a lot of definitions of what it means:  Just reading these may inspire you…

In my acronym, S.T.A.R.T.S. will mean:

 something you do…  

something new you do…

something you continue to do…

 

Spiritual

Truths

Activated

Renew/Restore/Replenish

Together

Soundness

 

I will start to share practical ways, that if put into practice over time, will promote well being in the daily grind and battles that inhabit mental illness…

I will share about that which I myself put into practice and experienced life-changing benefits from…

 

Mercy

When you’re ready, you will trust in GOD again… you have that choice, you own that decision only you can make, you have the will to empower trust in HIM whenever you want to practice it…

Trust is a heart and soul thing that grows after you set your mind to begin the endeavor again… You can learn to trust in HIM with moments (like your move to a new place) and choose to trust HIM for healing (like your lifelong journey through trauma/abuse to triumph/astounding) whenever you want… When you fall back to not trusting, from that low point and helpless perspective; you can once again look up in trust to your Heavenly FATHER who gives good gifts and wants to love and care for you… You may choose to trust in moments or a daily decision through prayer (prayer is turning to HIM in trust) and pouring out your heart (through talking to HIM out loud, quietly inside, or writing it out)…

You’re loved and cared for not matter what… You’ll get to know/relearn HIS love and care as you decide to trust when you choose to… I am proud of you when you choose to reach out to those weak in need of love and care… In your weakness, JESUS is strong… Being there for them in being who you are matters and is doing good despite what you may feel or think about yourself… You are showing faith in action; doing GOD’s will in doing HIS Word:

Psalm 41
1 Blessed are those who have regard for the weak;
the Lord delivers them in times of trouble.
2 The Lord protects and preserves them—
they are counted among the blessed in the land—
he does not give them over to the desire of their foes.
3 The Lord sustains them on their sickbed
and restores them from their bed of illness.

verse 1 “regard for the weak”; for me the orphans, for you may be anyone weak you reach out to (orphans, special needs children/adults, homeless, abused and neglected souls, widows/widowers, or elderly)

Focus on these Words above and let it become one of your life verses/life mantra…

These verses helped me hang on, believe and trust, and reach out and one day HE answered these promises in my own life… These awesome Words came true through HIM and through me, for me, and in me… I still cannot fathom the turn-around in my life because of JESUS the Living and active Word bringing this about and GOD the FATHER’s mercy and compassion for me…

Look carefully and choose to believe and trust for these to be your benefits as well:

1) delivers them in times of trouble
2) protects and preserves them / does not give them over to the desire of their foes (who want to steal, kill, or destroy; suicide)
3) restores them from their bed of illness (physically or emotionally or mentally or socially or spiritually; for me all 5)

If HE did it for me; I know HE will do it for you… Why? because HE is true to HIS Word and desires to be faithful in a person’s life
When? in HIS timing; so difficult to wait I know (took years for me) maybe for you quicker than my experience
How? in small and grand ways along the journey; sometimes miraculously
Who? you (for you do have regard for the weak)
Where? inside you

I know I went through what I went through to be a help/support to others weaker… This is ultimately the outcome from what I didn’t think was fair, what I didn’t understand, why I was abandoned, why I was often alone in my trauma and not knowing why GOD wasn’t there bringing me through like I knew HE could; why it wasn’t right a way – yet waited for me to learn mercy and compassion at the core of who I am now… HE took me through the depths of darkness to reach out to anybody now with profound faith, hope, and love… with confidence in HIM and who HE is and what I now know HE can/will do…

Much of my trauma was self-inflicted (so full of guilt and shame) from turning away from GOD in rebellious youthful sin and desires being as lost as one can be. Yet I turned to HIM and HE still answered me… me? why me? why HE didn’t abandon me further? why did HE not leave me in my sin? HIS love is greater than anyone can know or fathom… Now I live to show HIS love I know and continue to attempt to fathom… If I didn’t learn through painful depths to know HIS love, mercy, and compassion; then how would I know HIM as HE is and learn that I could reach those who may be in need… HE will choose and use the weak and unlearned to profound the strong and wise… There is so much darkness and cruelty in this world. HE takes some of us through trauma and darkness so we can be a light that shines in it as HE rescues precious children, men, and women that need HIM… sometimes to reveal what HIS love is through us… We choose to pray for and be there present and intercede for them because we know… we understand… we will stand for them… we will choose to love… we will choose purity… we will love purely… Blessed are the pure in heart, for they will see GOD (Matthew 5:8)…

You’re not a failure… You’re more than a conqueror through HIM who gives you strength… When you are weak come to HIM for rest… When you can’t do it anymore, wait on HIM for renewed strength… HE is faithful to HIS Word even when we are not…

Oh and let’s look at Psalm 41 vs. 4

I said, “Have mercy on me, Lord;
heal me, for I have sinned against you.”

What if we have sinned in some way!! Well I asked the LORD for mercy and to heal me of course… And so, HE healed me… me… and you?… you too!!!…

Ok! So you just got the wave from HIS ocean that was building within me to reach the shore of those needing mercy that will also be a blog post for my website that I have been wanting to write on Psalm 41 for a long, long while… I wrote this for you for sure; yet it is also for anyone else needing encouragement as well…

Reminisce

I reminisce…

Fight back;  persistence -found to be free

Temptations attack;  resistance -found purity

No slack;  repentance -found mercy

Take flak;  admittance -found family

Have a knack;  HIS assistance -found empathy

Back on track;  insistence -found grace aplenty

Heavy load unpack;  outdistance -found eternity

No more lack;  coexistence -found love fully

 

If it weren’t for the LORD to reminisce…

I would have torn apart;  ripped in pieces -so haunter makes remiss unsound into self-pity

What would be left if my soul deceases -no longer exist sound silenced empty

You rescued me in perfect love so fear ceases -daunter desist sound heart accept privily

You lighten burdens as Your peace increases -stronger to resist sound mind kept reassuringly

You’re the Giver of new life leases -song astir to persist sound spirit leapt freely

From our chains and our prisons You pardon releases -from wrongs turn away with grace assist sound joyfully adept with purpose and vision equipped fittingly

You Delivered

You delivered me from my sin and shame

You delivered me from my guilts horrid stain

You delivered me from Satan’s stalking my soul to claim

You delivered me from a dungeon locked in chains

You delivered me from outer darkness and blackness void inside left alone and lame

You delivered me from schizophrenia’s refrain

You delivered me from loss when others turned away

You delivered me from loneliness setting me in a family in Your time and way

You delivered me from homelessness where I’d suffer and never gain

You delivered me from an early grave

You delivered me from those whose intentions would be to maim

You delivered me from fear to make me brave

You delivered me my soul to save

You delivered me for new life now to crave

You delivered me as I give You thanks, about You will always rave, giving You all the glory, honor, and praise

You delivered me with the Life You gave

You delivered me to no longer go so far off when I used to stray

You delivered me to stand in the gap and pray

You delivered me to walk with You day by day

You delivered me with a willingness to now obey

You delivered me that for You and with You always stay

You delivered me in love from heights, depths, widths, breadths to great lengths no one would understand how far You came and the efforts You made that are beyond what words can ever say

Believe

Believe

More than HE may relieve

Believe

More than the enemy attempts to deceive

Believe

More than HE gives to receive

Believe

More than you choose to leave

Believe

More than you have had to grieve

Believe

More than you can conceive

Believe

More than HE has thus far chosen in your life to weave

Believe

More than you achieve

Believe

More than HE has granted reprieve

If

If I were the rain

I’d wash away the pain

I’d refill your cup with Living Water to sustain

I’d take on your sadness to add to mine to drain away from your soul for new growth to gain and for happiness to maintain until full joy can remain

 

If I were the snow

I’d remind you of forgiveness, whiter inside, to know

I’d cover over your focused on faults and fears so you would continue to grow

I’d melt away the negative thoughts that onward into a hope and a future you’d go

 

If I were the sky

I’d have the clouds say I love you as they pass by

I’d be your hope in endless blue so you’d never have to cry

I’d hold your desires in full view, not to wonder why they don’t come true, until you rise above to grasp them from on high

 

If I were a mountain tall

I’d be the steps to reach the sky for your desires to be more easily and quickly reached, for you not to think impossible, moving gradually upward so you wouldn’t fall

I’d send from above, into your valley whenever you’re stuck, to look again above with a life giving echoing call

I’d stand strong and secure as a place you can always return for comfort never left in suicidal disarray to nervously and hesitantly stall

 

If I were the sun

I’d send my light to the deepest part of your spirit inside to feel acceptance never to shun

I’d light the path to make clear your purpose and vision for which to run

I’d supply the warmth of faith to fill you inside to keep going until you’ve won the race and hear well done

 

If I were the moon

I’d reflect a brighter smile all the while so you knew you brought me joy in the day before lying down in safety’s sleeping soon

I’d reflect the flip side angry face that scares away the evil no longer to be traced, to slow down one’s pace, to not feel you have to act in haste or that life’s a waste, never to feel any doom

I’d reflect comforting soft light preparing you for the next day with grace’s refueling boon

 

If I were the stars

I’d sparkle in such a way to connect the dots making sense of who you are

I’d show you’re nearer to God and others never alone or subpar; guiding your eyes to look above so you’re no longer hiding or straying away into darkness so far away into what the world mars

I’d remind you always of knowing your place in the universe despite the scars

 

If I were the ocean

I’d send into your heart mercy and compassion foregoing the commotion

I’d send wave after wave of healing for your soul to restore in never ending motion

I’d send you treasures from deep within onto your shoreline just because you’re loved and valuable to remind you of the eternal notion

 

If I were a river

I’d flow into your heart peace that will rescue and from all fears deliver

I’d flow inside your heart as the wondrous dream come true giver

I’d flow alongside your life so you’d never feel alone or quiver

 

If I were a lake

I’d surround you with peace whenever you needed a break

I’d let you let go of the stress like rocks thrown and skipped across what you can no longer take

I’d be there to see your reflection to bounce back hope come awake beyond the heartache

 

If I were me

I’d write in such a way you’d see into love’s mystery

I’d say the right words that made a positive difference in you for eternity

I’d be there for you encouraging and supporting you no matter your history

 

If you believed

you’d get more than you can think, ask, or imagine to receive

you’d live life letting go of suicidal ideation for the greater miracle you still will be

you’d no longer give in to the lies that deceive; living in and with a love greater than you can now conceive

 

If only you…

If only…

If…

If

If is not the end…

What if it’s a new beginning…

I’d cheer you on…

You’d…

 

 

 

Life Again

Awaken

Quick, partake

of life again

 

Forsake then

evil, relate

with HIM to defend

 

Retake in

love, heartache

will begin to mend

 

Remake when

open, make

good HIS promises as Your Friend

Sound

Whispers atop the waters won’t stop coming to my ears

Carried across waves surging urging prayer, toss into strumming my heart to hear

Cries riding the four winds out of hiding are deafening, not lessening

Whys collides with Your promises and realities confide to intercede with their pleas for Your help and hope to receive through what’s pressing

Shouts echo nights skies of my fellow brothers and sisters bellows deep within to high above to me below

Stars silence twinkling sounds their tears revealing darknesses abuses that surround life alive dwindling, remembering those imprisoned, uplift to FATHER GOD for love’s rekindling to know and grow freed when let go from those evil who harm HE will overthrow

Mental Illness

What’s your mental illness?

Find HIM in the stillness

Draw near and HE draws near to bless

with willingness…

if you ask… -to give relief from grief and break chains that have you bound from outward stress

if you seek… -to find refreshing from fears threshing all around distress

if you knock… -to open the door to restore from agitations that drown and inward press

HE will soon provide your soul’s needed rest

To persevere in prayer for healing from anxieties that oppress

To make it up and out, through to the other side of darkness

To find hope and purpose arise from under life’s duress

Within HIS reach is peace of a sound mind to once again possess

Within HIS reach is peace of a pure heart to once again find more love rather than less and less

Within HIS reach is peace of a restored soul to once again enter into the light of the living acquiesce

Within HIS reach is a peace of a free spirit to once again soar from the nest awaiting Heaven’s address

So delight yourself in the LORD holding onto HIS rope of 3 chord strand not easily broken to stay out of that prison that arrests

For more of HIM move toward with trusting openness

HE will give the desires of your heart as a reward in being HIS invited guest becoming a part of HIS family into relational oneness with adoption’s kindness

You’re more than a conqueror in Christ whose blood for you outpoured for all of who you are with all your mess, a valuable treasure, HE did purchase

You’re worth not giving up on so wait on the LORD and implore for HIS help in your depression, press on…  press on…  no longer suppress what you want and need to express and confess;  all of you HE accepts

For HIM to renew strength on HIS eagle’s wings to soar above the darkness to bring HIS Light and Love to those below with HIS Presence offering that same forgiveness, acceptance, and healing’s essence

Hear HIS mighty roar resonance remembering HE fights your battles in the war uplifting you out of death’s sentence

 

 

 

Suicide; Not God’s Heart

Suicide; Not God’s Heart

Suicide is not My intent, abundant life I desire to give

Died on a cross did My Son I sent, to believe and receive forgiveness and grace in order to live

JESUS is risen overcoming sin and death to intercede, never to leave you or be forsken

A hope and a future in being set free, vision and purpose conceived in being awakened

As far as the east is to the west, so far has HE removed our transgressions from us

For the least and all the rest, who holds lives and everything together in being the Faithful One we can trust

Come to the throne of grace in time of need, to receive mercy and grace HE will impart

Delight yourself in the LORD indeed, and you will be given the desires of your heart

Will you trust ME with your pain?

I’m the One who took your sin’s stains and shame…

Will you trust ME with your heart ache?

I created you and are not a mistake

Will you hold on to My promises that set you free?

Let me strengthen you as you wait with faith to just believe

Will you love the One who first loved you?

I knew you before you were and your times are in My hands, so I will work all

things for your good in making all things new…

Will you hold on to ME?

And the height, width, depth, and breadth of My love to one day see…

Will you let me comfort you in your suffering?

I daily bear your burdens and will be a constant in life’s buffering…

Will you turn to ME for healing rather than what the world offers that’s temporarily appealing?

Let ME fill you with My peace and joy to overflowing past inadequate feelings and give back more than the enemy was stealing