A world turn to ice
Rotation seems to stop -test
The roll of the dice
Grow up to release stress
Resistance to change
Succumb to nevertheless
Desire to be someone
Lost in the night from days depressed
Fade with disappearance of the sun
Where becomes the focus more or less
Inward view at darkness strange
Hell on earth felt with mental illness
Battle is in my mind
Life or death hangs in the balance hard pressed
Can’t help but look for a sign
Negative thoughts overtake intense
Fear and doubt narrows outlooks range
Future dread, past enchains, present in suspense
Let go self care
Minimalizing nourishment starving inside as my guest
Brain eating itself deceiving now aware
Cold heart mourn trespassed east to west
Soul torn in unrest
Frozen spirit forlorn tests distressed
Mind stuck on warning/warning/warning/warn?!. digress
Perfect storm enters inside to derange
Panic stricken hidden within head’s walls torments
Suicide has access
How come I acquiesce
Open the door, crossed the line oppressed
Suicidal hours pass suppress
Relentless until possess -success?!.
Drown out voices in excess
No such attempt a success…
Come up for air with will still to live reassess
Arise soaken wet convalesce
Hitch a ride back to civilization egress
At a loss that death somehow did outguess finality this time, how to process?
Did I go too far with the way I transgress?
Parents sullen expression hopeless -turn their back and walk away
My only hope is Heaven above to hear my cries to HIM confess
Scared the enemy stalks in this darkness; hearing breaths closing in for attack as I pray
In time JESUS answers to rescue, restore, redeem to repossess
Relationship with the LORD reestablished over the years with interchange
Taken back into the sheepfold to learn trust has been an ongoing process
All HE did for me I can’t express fully in my writings or with my spoken words, but I try
Yet, JESUS, is HIS precious name I will forever profess
Since HE has heard my wavering cries, I will walk with HIM no longer to deny for faith, hope, and love now unto others apply…
Frozen ice melts with the SON press on Heavenward progress
Saves lives, softens hearts, sanctifies minds, sets spirits free in wondrous and beautiful exchange
Casts out fear with perfect love HE has won to bless…
Suicide Not God's Heart 