Ice Melts

A world turn to ice

Rotation seems to stop -test

The roll of the dice

 

Grow up to release stress

Resistance to change

Succumb to nevertheless

 

Desire to be someone

Lost in the night from days depressed

Fade with disappearance of the sun

 

Where becomes the focus more or less

Inward view at darkness strange

Hell on earth felt with mental illness

 

Battle is in my mind

Life or death hangs in the balance hard pressed

Can’t help but look for a sign

 

Negative thoughts overtake intense

Fear and doubt narrows outlooks range

Future dread, past enchains, present in suspense

 

Let go self care

Minimalizing nourishment starving inside as my guest

Brain eating itself deceiving now aware

 

Cold heart mourn trespassed east to west

Soul torn in unrest

Frozen spirit forlorn tests distressed

Mind stuck on warning/warning/warning/warn?!. digress

Perfect storm enters inside to derange

Panic stricken hidden within head’s walls torments

 

Suicide has access

How come I acquiesce

Open the door, crossed the line oppressed

 

Suicidal hours pass suppress

Relentless until possess -success?!.

Drown out voices in excess

 

No such attempt a success…

Come up for air with will still to live reassess

Arise soaken wet convalesce

 

Hitch a ride back to civilization egress

At a loss that death somehow did outguess finality this time, how to process?

Did I go too far with the way I transgress?

 

Parents sullen expression hopeless -turn their back and walk away

My only hope is Heaven above to hear my cries to HIM confess

Scared the enemy stalks in this darkness; hearing breaths closing in for attack as I pray

 

In time JESUS answers to rescue, restore, redeem to repossess

Relationship with the LORD reestablished over the years with interchange

Taken back into the sheepfold to learn trust has been an ongoing process

 

All HE did for me I can’t express fully in my writings or with my spoken words, but I try

Yet, JESUS, is HIS precious name I will forever profess

Since HE has heard my wavering cries, I will walk with HIM no longer to deny for faith, hope, and love now unto others apply…

 

Frozen ice melts with the SON press on Heavenward progress

Saves lives, softens hearts, sanctifies minds, sets spirits free in wondrous and beautiful exchange

Casts out fear with perfect love HE has won to bless…

  

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More than you can see…

More than you can know…

 

Can’t see how great my passion freeing fans the flame deep inside will roar

Can’t know the fate HIS fashioning hands within leap to die still for

Can’t see how great my delight stands in awe of HIM for desires of my heart come true

Can’t know the rate Thy Light commands within HIS call into my heartbeats afire find life impart anew

 

Can’t see how great my soul was pinned -attacked again and again; brought out of death’s pit HE saved from tragedy to walk by faith in the land of the living

Can’t know the state my mind was in back then when enemy did apprehend; fought bout almost quit HE gave grace and mercy to talk as I stand of HIS forgiving

 

Can’t see how my spirit almost fatally wounded HE healed deep within to hold and keep alit that I might shine until stronger for HIM alone of love shone in compassion hone to tell of HIS good deeds

Can’t know the brokenness of hopelessness my life once felt seep out my every pore to weep remit when contrite align to HIS will no longer dimly known not my own of HIS Word sown to go where HE leads

Live…

 

Yet we live on…

until the devil meets his match that GOD our FATHER strikes its end… set aflame, far from us expulsion disbanded -no longer with fiery darts targeting at our hearts aim

our faith he can’t catch; crush his head then fallen into lake of fire send… let tame his evil compulsion stranded -no longer with tiring accusations marketing at our minds blame

Because we live on and on…

set free he can’t snatch; secure in the Savior’s care and the FATHER’s strongest hands tend… debt/shame gone as peace and grace rush in granted -no longer with firing arrows darkening to our souls maim

beyond the grave deep within is Heaven attached; await a future hope prepared above where we fully mend… met mercy anew every morning propulsion open handed -made stronger desiring eternity harkening to our spirits claim

So we will live on and on and on…

 

Faith in God Moves Mountains

 

I remember not long ago needing slack for You to bring me back…

Jagged ledges can’t climb around or reach above -stuck then

Ragged pledges won’t climb down to beseech below -shun again

I remember further back; despairing attacks becoming a paranoiac and an insomniac…

Staggering of past avalanches brought me into a rut left with nil that chides downhill to my lowest point donned -found weak and stunned to barely cope

Lagging with present damages caught up with me yet will I rise until… do so slowest to join fond crown peak -need to overrun to see hope

I remember just awhile back what I lacked

Aggravating “what if” future ravages wrought; confront to perceive Who still guides and will grow through knowest truths choice beyond abounds -seek the SON set free elope

Agonizing daily challenges sought, want apprise to their shrill cries, fulfill overflow to showest proofs voice of love surrounds unique among -let receive lifelines rope

Adores HIS goal unfold to mold me; fought through the strife

 

I remember You going the extra mile to…

Carry me over rugged mountain too high as fears cease

Care for me into the valley of joy to find Your peace

I remember being with You while I accrued breakthroughs…

Riding in truth during amends to talk with You confide as anxieties decrease

Abiding in You on the journey then to walk with you beside as trust does increase

I remember You leading me out of denial anew…

Along the streams edge refreshing purity in me define

Upon green pastures privilege meshing; resting in Thee divine

Restores my soul whole to behold Thee; brought into new life in sweet release

I will always remember how You reconciled in being faithful and true…

I remember to forever thank You for the rescue!!!…

 

Reasons to Remember

 

Here for a reason

Why I carry on so

For a season

How long I don’t know

 

Listen to reminder

Never alone in the throes

Be kinder along the way as a pathfinder

Mercy to give others among their woes

 

Meant to remember

Compassion to show

Ignite the ember

Eager to grow

 

Be responsible

Despite the toll of pains blow

Overcome every obstacle

He died to give you new life for HIS renown owe

 

Goal to reconcile

Uplift the low

Reach out to those in denial

Faith seeds to sow

 

Make recompense

With love overflow

Stand in defense

Voice on behalf of the orphans, the weak, and the poor bestow

 

Life purpose reconsider

Envision where to go

For the little children never hinder unto HIS arms open wide come hither

Justice to prevail against all evil derail until fears overthrow

 

Choose to rescue

Those fallen below

Leave the many for the few

Willing to walk through the valley of death’s shadow

 

Faith, hope, and love remain

To refill, refresh, replenish, and restore the hollow

Greatest of these is love to sustain

Receive from Heaven’s open window until reach it’s door open to enter the afterglow

 

 

 

 

 

Rest Both Awake and Asleep

Tired

Overly tired

Spread thin

yolk is easy confirmation light -go to rend the Heavens behold passion live in

Wired

Sleeplessly wired

Head spin

Invoke inspiration ignite -go to depend on HIM for soul satisfaction beyond what I imagine

Listen

Musically listen

Fed within

Spoke in affirmation from above at night -go to tend unfold thirsty ration given

Discipline

Mostly discipline

Led in

Soak in admiration with love upright -go to mend whole in mercy and compassion driven

Praying

Rally praying

fled open

Broken door revelation contrite -go in to defend those abandoned/imprisoned

Obeying

Steadfastly obeying

Tread begin

Awoken toward impassioned Light -go forth to befriend young and old uphold; then as fashioned rest again

 

 

 

 

 

 

At My Worst~To Better than I was at First

Fallen deep pit

Hidden pitch black

Walled in steep outwit

Forbidden niche lack

All alone sit

Sudden despair attack

On my own unfit

Backslidden rebellion retract

Mood swings low until hollow only the negativity transmit

Suicidal thoughts screams overthrow into mind hack

Guilt and shame drown with an attempt as reality hit

Stunned in shock with voice stolen by enemy flak

Fear overwhelmed almost overtaken by demons as I waited in transit

Overcome was my soul out of whack

Hell made real stuck between good vs. evil with personality split

 

Sullen weep uplift

Freedom bring back

Called within;  keep lit

Seventy x seven forgiven;  does it make up the slack

Failure of wrongs confess to HIM admit

Open door of hope impact

A 3 chord strand of rope equipped

Burden of apprehension weigh upon unpack

Light of love shone won’t quit

Broken and contrite as a matter of fact

Healing the rift between my heart, soul, and spirit

Kingdom care steer on track

Given a sound mind again as I renew it

Heaven’s destination remind where treasures stack with compassions destiny mine to be exact

Faith to live on now the pre-requisite