Posts Tagged ‘past’

I remember memories that replay yesterday and wonder why

I remember memories that sway back and forth today and sigh

I remember memories that delay like deja vu arrayed in the future reapplied

I remember memories of mistakes and failures made causing pain I’d rather hide

I remember memories held at bay I’d rather not say went awry

I remember memories once afraid no longer make me prey in the night

I remember memories laid bare so much stronger that I pray won’t be how I die

I remember memories of hell’s visit down the broadway with sin’s choice for entrance prefaced I’d preferably decide to contrive and be deprived

I remember memories like shade in the hottest summer to evade under a tree think twice about while I reside with the littlest faith arise

I remember memories where I strayed until found by the ONE I betrayed now unto will abide with hope to enter HIS arms in Heaven arrive

I remember memories of fear weighed heavily upon this casualty of war that love conveyed in order for it to disappear and heal me inside

I remember memories that slay my pride to display the humility I now allow to guide

I remember memories that give way to HIS grace now to follow as I soar above the storm on the heights by HIS Spirit not by might

I remember memories that trade my punishment with HIS mercy instead that covers me always new every morning to find supplied as I remain contrite

I remember memories that pervade of HIS compassion embraced that erased the oppression and loneliness while it trained me to comfort others with a depth of understanding comprised

I remember memories where HIS truth sustained and prayers uplifted with thanks maintained a peace that surpassed all understanding guarding my heart and mind in JESUS Christ

I remember memories spent alone with HIM that I can now say will remain as I’ve been taught HIS Word to obey where I’ve been tried as gold refined, where I’ve been aligned to HIS will defined, and where I’ve dined with HIM to always remind me I’m HIS and HE is mine for all time…

Broken Dream Until Mended Reality

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There is grace for every broken dream

Onward walk to continue being

Onward unseen until mended reality seeing

Onward forward steps keep repeating

Onward go on for you’re worth your heart beating

Onward becoming who you’re meant to be rather than retreating or worse yet leaving

Onward knowing HE lives at the right hand of GOD with scars for you interceding

Onward heeding HIS voice of encouraging to continue enduring and persevering even if for now it’s just breathing

On HIM always lean…

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Press on rather than regress despite feeling depressed

Pass the test to go on beyond the trials and tribulations that oppress

Continue with faith in the SON for making progress

Continue to hope in HIM to find rest

Continue in HIS love which is greatest and will work out what is best

Choose life and blessing over death and cursing that HE died to give you as your inspiring and motivating quest

Draw near to HIM and HE will draw nearer sincerest as you pour out your heart to HIM in confidence rather than those feelings just suppress

Reassess life as a maturing process, mess of sin with guilt and shame confess to find forgiveness, and then will profess HIS evidence realized further along life’s journey of HIS faithfulness

Focus is more when there is less…

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Less to not weigh you down in fear replaced by HIS love held dear

Less worry in your heart found in HIM who makes it disappear

Less weary chasing after empty success that falls aground like tears

Less willful of your own plans that fail here

Less want of the world’s lust wandering into sin that causes pain and torment so severe

Less wasting away in your illness with HIS acceptance of all that you are by caring for yourself to improve mental, emotional, physical, and spiritual health adhere

Less wavering in unbelief by simply believing HE will turn your life around with HIS patience and gentleness steer

Less wondering about what ifs of the past that HE uses in your future to help others made more clear

Less while HE becomes more to you during your extended years

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More faith in HIS truth so you’re no longer unruly that will no longer duly offend

More hope and trust in HIS ways you can truly depend on now that you’re newly opened

More love in HIS life abiding to be a light shining in darkness to give freely and often

More mercy from HIS healing throne of Heaven that is new every morning sent

More compassion from HIS heart to listen to others vent -even from suicide may prevent

More grace from HIS hand to lead and guide you along righteous paths that will leave no regret in retrospect

More of HIS Spirit welcoming within who will comfort you with HIS Presence, counsel you with HIS wisdom, and care for your well-being with moans expressed according to GOD’s will for your life when words of prayer fail to connect

More delighting in HIM to be given the desires of your heart meant to mend your dreams again made relevant where nightmares can’t circumvent

More freedom will come after suffering through a set timeframe where to live is Christ and to die is gain that is effective when wait on GOD’s timing and not your own as you wait to resurrect into HIS arms as Heaven’s resident

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Wait on HIM for new strength returning to soar above the storms on eagle’s wings freeing

Wait on HIM for renewing your mind with truth until having soundness of peace releasing

Wait on HIM for reviving your heart recreating within purity and right desires brought back into the land of the living reconvening

Wait on HIM for rescue unto redemption forthcoming that will restore your soul and implore within you vision, purpose, and meaning that’s increasing

Wait on HIM for refilling your cup to overflowing until refreshing your spirit into HIS will agreeing and being a doer of HIS Word unleashing

Wait on HIM watching as HE wins every battle in your war raging against the enemy who attempts at deceiving

Wait on HIM to direct your steps through open doors revealing

Wait on HIM for HIS promises open handed toward until receiving

Wait on HIM for complete healing that makes you whole whether here on earth or there in Heaven as the great reward for continually believing

A world turn to ice

Rotation seems to stop -test

The roll of the dice

 

Grow up to release stress

Resistance to change

Succumb to nevertheless

 

Desire to be someone

Lost in the night from days depressed

Fade with disappearance of the sun

 

Where becomes the focus more or less

Inward view at darkness strange

Hell on earth felt with mental illness

 

Battle is in my mind

Life or death hangs in the balance hard pressed

Can’t help but look for a sign

 

Negative thoughts overtake intense

Fear and doubt narrows outlooks range

Future dread, past enchains, present in suspense

 

Let go self care

Minimalizing nourishment starving inside as my guest

Brain eating itself deceiving now aware

 

Cold heart mourn trespassed east to west

Soul torn in unrest

Frozen spirit forlorn tests distressed

Mind stuck on warning/warning/warning/warn?!. digress

Perfect storm enters inside to derange

Panic stricken hidden within head’s walls torments

 

Suicide has access

How come I acquiesce

Open the door, crossed the line oppressed

 

Suicidal hours pass suppress

Relentless until possess -success?!.

Drown out voices in excess

 

No such attempt a success…

Come up for air with will still to live reassess

Arise soaken wet convalesce

 

Hitch a ride back to civilization egress

At a loss that death somehow did outguess finality this time, how to process?

Did I go too far with the way I transgress?

 

Parents sullen expression hopeless -turn their back and walk away

My only hope is Heaven above to hear my cries to HIM confess

Scared the enemy stalks in this darkness; hearing breaths closing in for attack as I pray

 

In time JESUS answers to rescue, restore, redeem to repossess

Relationship with the LORD reestablished over the years with interchange

Taken back into the sheepfold to learn trust has been an ongoing process

 

All HE did for me I can’t express fully in my writings or with my spoken words, but I try

Yet, JESUS, is HIS precious name I will forever profess

Since HE has heard my wavering cries, I will walk with HIM no longer to deny for faith, hope, and love now unto others apply…

 

Frozen ice melts with the SON press on Heavenward progress

Saves lives, softens hearts, sanctifies minds, sets spirits free in wondrous and beautiful exchange

Casts out fear with perfect love HE has won to bless…

  

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Sing the blues

Nudged analyzing

Beating heart not alone; relating deeply froze within more quickly stocked of proof

Repeating parts unknown; fading steeply closed the open door strictly locked aloof

 

Out of the blue

Flood rising

Heaving beneath me uprising -dares something that would despair as if from a warmonger; unaware as it towered over mocked in bout of how to move

Leaving me grieved -fretting there’s nothing that good to share any longer; stare as a coward in shock without a clue

 

Feeling blue

Blood comprising

Blinking moments nothing new

Shrinking monotony mental agony grew

 

Black and blue

Stunned compromising

Weakening in the fight forlorn; yearn for my Friend an empty feeling to deploy with hint of doom

Deepening apart from the Light cornered by the enemy stealing all joy left in my room

 

Got the blues

Mud despising

Fleeting luck in this life seemingly blew above my head into outer space bound with death sentence flew

Seething amok with strife reeling; need to shove aside dread, sin, doubt -turn pace around meant with repentance reprove

 

Beyond the blue horizon remove

Trudged agonizing

Thinking and motion why tarries/ my very end later nears adieu

Deceiving and broken lies scare/ ties snare me again; greater fears loom

 

Deeper than the deep blue sea subdued

Thud immobilizing

Breathing at bay with drawl confused

Sinking away from all of you

 

Turning blue

Grudge surmising

Clinging to forever promises in lieu of madness now found to never ever be overdue

Interceding, HIS endeavor promises to approve of sadness abound/ astound together whatever needs over drew

 

Look to the skies in open blue

Overcome arising

Seeking height of mercy seat from whom my help (aligning when show contrite I now move upright) comes to  soon

See KING aright as High Priest from whom my hope (shining defense so bright I bow through the night) comes at noon

 

Once in a blue moon

Budge realizing the ONE recognizing

Freeing mercy cover over past bring; now unglued and from all that had me unglued

Relieving thirsty love astir everlasting; endow into and from HIS call that I gladly exude

 

True blue

Drudge galvanizing

Unshrinking back with face forward instead; set above like flint to live life sent anew

Leading attack with grace soar Heavenward indebted to love true ignite stint to give light into

 

Until blue in the face behoove

Dud demoralizing, won some advising, scud revising, undone advertising, run exercising, lungs emphasizing, SON energizing

Linking faith/ Truth to chase for breakthrough

Linking wraith testimony to race for souls accrue

 

Ocean blue

Adjudge enterprising

Reaching out to touch your shore to be restored

Teaching Fount you clutch toward to be adored

 

Roses are red, violets are blue

Bud devising

Bringing to all faith, hope, and love into view

Seeing with vision imbue

Believing the purpose to do

Receiving compassion construe

Conceiving beyond what to think, ask, or imagine until overflowing with the mission of love driven pursue…

 

Blue is my favorite color ever since a child I’d choose

Young mesmerizing

Meeting I still knew of depression fight an oppression weighed heavily from among arrows burn can discern the enemy who accused -me and plenty others share; pleading from earth’s venue

Greeting I will do in Heaven quite an impression made steadily of unsung heroes who were in turn mending as abused -free from any tethers wear; needing rebirth’s rescue

 

Blue is for the hope I see in you…

Blue is for the life HE gives anew…

Blue is for the new in you HE will do…

Blue is for breakthrough and all that is true…

 

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