Once~Then~Thankful

Once so crumbling devastated

Then to be humbly elevated

Thankful for HIS grace…

 

Once so broken inside fragmented pieces

Then to have faith’s security, hope’s clarity, and love’s sincerity that increases

Thankful for HIS mercy…

 

Once so trapped in the deepest pit

Then to have the fortitude to never quit

Thankful for HIS compassion…

 

Once so alone in shock doubting and questioning all of reality in total darkness

Then to be brought near to HIM contrite into the Light rescued so my mind works with new ability and noble sparked interests

Thankful for HIS giving me faith…

 

Once so wavering in turmoil thought I’d been tossed out to sea with Heaven now closed

Then to be set free with destination in fact now open forevermore so my soul alert to HIS faithfulness knows

Thankful for HIS giving me hope…

 

Once so fearful, empty, selfish, and filled with self-hatred 

Then to be at peace, fully restored, reaching out, and overflowing fulfillment so my hearts desires come true of its longing created for, awaited for, and elated for the sacred

Thankful for HIS giving me love…

 

Once so weak sinking beneath the pressure and stress anxiously in agony left to my malady of bankruptcy almost a tragedy

Then in renewed strength rising above accepting my spirit beyond measure to profess consciously in cadency my testimony of amnesty about HIS remedy

Thankful for HIS giving HIS Spirit reuniting mine…

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Suicidal Thoughts Not a Sin

Mine or yours having fierce suicidal thoughts are not a sin in its reoccurring more than meditation

Mine or yours having fierce suicidal thoughts are a battle we can win enduring the onslaught and persevering until disaster passes without retaliation

My frontline reality is fighting beyond suicidal ideation into dreams desires for realization

My focus centrality is encouraging all to make it out within HIS remediation

My frame of reference is faith, hope, and love to abound from the Creator to HIS creation

My family I live for so I continue to press on with determination

My faith is that I don’t live for myself alone, but unto HIM in adoration

My freedom is to live pure to be secure in God the FATHER’s hands for the SON’s traits rebuilding within this clay as HIS formation

 

I know some will overcome every moment into freedom in the future with just being blood bought

I know some will succumb to its’ warring thoughts, yet with faith as small as a mustard seed will put trust in HIM continually knowing its not for nought

I know some will be numb from the scarring its wrought, yet rise above into new life after whats fraught

I know some will come to know JESUS once sparring alone to discover who helps in the battles fought

I know some will become found to enter in HIM after the jarring being stuck as HE lifts up with compassion from the pit caught

I know some will be from outer darkness until starring with HIM from mercy inward being taught

I know some will fall seven times and rise again 8, since each turn for help is hope and strength in HIM having sought

I know some will face their giants with grace until each one is slain to stand above the onslaught

 

Live On

Darkness doesn’t stand a chance

Against the Light

Making all things seen

 

Evil doesn’t stand a chance

Against One’s Love

Setting captives free

 

Depression doesn’t stand a chance

Against new Life

Accepting oneself even in misery

 

Mental Illness doesn’t stand a chance

Against lessons learned

Pressing on despite its history

 

Suicidal ideation doesn’t stand a chance

Against my cries coming to YOUR ears listening

Letting go to live on in future’s Mystery

Questions

What do I need to do

To get you through

The hardest part of living

 

What do I need to prove

To lead you to what is new into

The hardest heart I’m giving

 

When will you believe

In order to receive

A purpose centered on mission as focused vision within Living Water overflow

 

When will you perceive

In order to conceive

Grace, mercy, and compassion given from above into your below

 

Why do you doubt 

Theres a better way out

To live with faith, hope, and love beyond measure

 

Why do you shout

To who doesn’t already know what it’s all about

A homecoming for your soul HE has sought, He has bought, He has wrought as precious treasure

 

Where are you going

Closed shut blowing in the wind for you could be drawn in openhanded

Receive a place all your own with healing for the pain

 

Where are you growing

Closed shut above the ground for you could be drawn in to be planted

Though you die, new life will sprout appealing to what you’ll gain

 

How are you on your own

Fending for yourself unknown

Hiding until almost dying; question lie inside -fights the nights without light

 

How will you be if not alone

Defending your soul on HIS throne

Abiding until foremost arriving in Heaven beside guide -delights to ride on the heights

In Time

Time goes on and on

Even think it’s the end

Then new life begins again

 

Talk inside my mind runs ahead

Maps a plan of action prior to sleep

Desires I dream up aren’t always to keep

 

Tracks my heartbeat takes

Guides my feet

Sometimes falters in the in betweens

 

Trust so my soul will thrive

I try to hold steady

Stand firm be bold ready

 

Train my spirit learn to soar

By faith catch updrafts of wind

Only leading where I’m to go opened

 

Times up one day then eternity

Hope for clarity envision

Decision to share my story on mission

 

Together a family promised forevermore

With love deepening stronger bonds to always grow

Know beyond a shadow of doubt Love’s fount will always overflow

All You Need

If you don’t listen to what I say

I pray

HE will meet you in the middle of the night

More than a dream come true

Proving HE is real I already knew

 

That HE may speak peace be still it’s ok

You pray

To receive HIM into your heart giving you new life inside with HIS Light

Giving what you need now so much more than before when you had no clue

With access to mercy new every morning like the dew

 

Only HE can save

Lay down HIS life for the lost and stray

HE is the answer to everyone’s plight

HE will come again and find you

Even if you walked away or just withdrew

 

Draw near and HE draws near to stay

Until faith, hope, and love within you remain

With broken spirit heart contrite

HE will accept you back HIS faithfulness to prove

HE will empower you to overcome all that you need to

Just Beyond

Just make it real

Beyond what conceals feel

Just take pain -shield

Beyond kill, destroy, steal

Just send to heal

Beyond the brokenness surreal

 

Just carry on forever

Beyond the daily weather

Just speak truth center

Beyond hearing lies sever

Just listen -compassion’s endeavor

Beyond where understandings never

 

Just realize you matter

Beyond where emotions scatter

Just dream Jacob’s ladder

Beyond earth’s atmosphere flatter

Just await rescues answer

Beyond what caused shatter

 

Just choose to stay

Beyond the hurt betray

Just live each day

Beyond one more today

Just outlast sun’s rays

Beyond horizons leveled ways

 

Just climb mountain peaks

Beyond valleys low steep

Just swim above ocean’s sleep

Beyond mistakes sinking deep

Just soar updrafts keep

Beyond storm clouds leap

 

Just be to do

Beyond with love prove

Just see vision anew

Beyond if darkness grew

Just accept yourself overdue

Beyond guilts shame unglue

 

Just as you are

Beyond your reflections star

Just outlive fear spar

Beyond what’s near and far

Just a needed spark

Beyond out flames dark

 

Just trust faith girth

Beyond a miracles birth

Just trust hope girth

Beyond the miracles rebirth

Just trust love girth

Beyond your miracles worth

 

Just beyond future know reward of an open door

Just beyond fight show as mentor in the war

Just beyond fright grow to restore all the more

Just beyond fear go outpour into others implore

Just beyond freedom overflow encore overcoming what once was before