Posts Tagged ‘healing’

There will be setbacks

Not meant to remain in remorse

Just stay the course

 

There will be paybacks

Not meant for you to give

Let go and continue on to live

 

There will be drawbacks

When fear seems to win again

Choose faith to overcome often

 

There will be step backs

Regroup to move forward after rest

Push through until pass the test

 

There will be flashbacks

Panic attacks that take over at times to rewind inferiority

Held back until trust in HIM reminds to find security

 

There will be comebacks

Better than luck will wait to be renewed

After getting stuck will find breakthrough

 

There will be broken dreams

Fix your eyes and continue to believe

One day in delighting you may receive

 

There will be broken hearts

For compassion to grow within

And then mend again arisen

 

There will be wounded souls

That need to be restored however severe

Touch of healing enters their core to reward when persevere

 

There will be wounded spirits

That look for an open door

Release of healing upon wings to soar

 

There will be suicidal thoughts

Surprised at how far you’ve fallen down

Pulled from the waters so as not to drown

 

There will be depression fought

Keep the light lit even if moments flickering slight

Weep in the night until new dawn awaken aright

 

There will be death soon enough

Find faith, hope, and love that remain

Store up treasure in Heaven where your heart will maintain

 

There will be life anew beyond what’s rough

Turn away from plans to end it all refrain

Find grace, mercy, and peace that will sustain

Sooner or later

Discover a hole

Like helium out of a balloon

Unable to rise again

 

Sooner or later

Discover a slit

Like air out of a flat tire

Stuck in a rut

 

Sooner or later

Discover the pressure

Like air deflating the lungs

Hard to breathe

 

Sooner or later

Discover the empty space within

Like nothing can ever fill or another can’t ever fulfill

Lost in despair

 

Sooner or later

Discover the mind not shutting up or shutting down

Like haywire, a trip wire, wires crossed

Sparking thoughts racing or turned off distressed

 

Sooner or later

Discover the heart is broken

Like pieces of a puzzle knowing some are missing

Not able to be complete

 

Sooner or later

Discover the soul is wandering in the desert or wilderness

Like needed water is drying up 

Thirst can’t be quenched

 

Sooner or later

Discover the spirit longing for something more

Like a dream out of reach

Awake each day hopeless or empty

 

Later than sooner

Discover HE fills the empty space within

Faith is activated when HIS Spirit newly opens after life of sin

Hope is elevated by HIS WORD duly awoken the promises to trust in

Love is emanated from HIS Life healing what’s broken to no longer be hidden

 

Later than sooner

Discover HIS grace

Lifts your head again and again

Until you begin to soar high above it all

 

Later than sooner

Discover HIS mercy

Lifts you up out of the pit where you sit

Releasing you to walk openly in the land of the living

 

Later than sooner

Discover HIS compassion

Meets you where you’re at 

Holding you up in your weakness until stronger

 

Later than sooner

Discover HIS Light 

Penetrates the darkness

Bringing you out into freedom

 

Later than sooner 

Discover HIS WORD is able to renew your mind

Processes wisdom into a new train of thoughts

Alleviating the tormenting with soundness, clarity, and peace prove profound

 

Later than sooner 

Discover HIS Hands can mold, shape, and revive the heart

Gives its desires to come true as one delights in HIM continually

Creating it anew to be pure and whole

 

Later than sooner

Discover HIS Presence provides green pasture and still waters to restore the soul

Satisfies the hunger with Daily Bread and quenches the thirst with Living Water

Protecting you through the valley of the shadow with rod and staff

 

Later than sooner

Discover HIS purpose and vision of HIS will for you to quicken and refresh the spirit

Leads you on paths of righteousness to follow for HIS name sake

Initiating your destiny while you live here on earth moving forward until reaching and entering Heaven

There is faith transcending

There is hope befriending

There is love unrelenting 

So these 3 remain never ending

 

There is grace tending

There is mercy defending

There is compassion mending

So these 3 HE’s ever sending

 

There’s HIS stripes healing

There’s HIS crown of thorns taking the shame revealing

There’s HIS cross to lay down HIS life re-appealing

So these 3 for us stand against the enemy shielding

 

There’s HIS blood outpouring, forgiving, covering

There’s HIS Living Water restoring for a new beginning; recovering

There’s HIS Spirit for soaring, getting help with living; hovering

So these 3 HE gives toward wondering and focus above for inner restructuring

 

There’s more than we can ask for provision when HE listens toward Salvation’s decisions until arisen

There’s more than we can think to envision others forgiven and setting those free from prisons until unhidden

There’s more than we can imagine for a greater mission driven storing up treasure in Heaven as  true pure wisdom

So these 3 HE gives to fulfill the Great Commission

 

There’s our mind to renew HIS will to find

There’s our heart to be made pure HIS face to remind

There’s our soul to be restored in HIS Vine abide

So these 3 HE offers to realign reflecting HIS Light continually shine

 

There’s HIS Spirit HE gives to find counsel that won’t cease

There’s HIS Spirit HE gives to find inner peace

There’s HIS Spirit HE gives to find truth that will increase

So these 3 are evidence from that which HE seals within us as a deposit guaranteeing our entrance into Heaven upon release

 

For all the lost

To and fro tossed

Come gather to hear the Good News

Freedom after when listen and take in Victories Truths

Your destiny is to believe and be saved

HIS ministry to receive all that HE gave

 

For all the found

Who still doubt

Come gather at HIS throne to gain grace and mercy needed

Freedom after to continue on as more than a conqueror heeded

Your destiny is to believe and press on Heavenward go

HIS ministry to receive courage and confidence to know

 

For all who follow

Pursue HIS will to show

Come gather to bring all glory, honor, and praise

Freedom after giving to the call of the FATHER:  told your story, mold by the Potter, and behold  all your days

Your destiny to hear “Well, done good and faithful servant”

HIS ministry to draw near as you draw near so fervent

 

For all who are weary and heavy burdened

Queue to await renewed strength thats certain

Come gather around HIM for rest for your soul

Freedom after abound with zest traded for what took a toll

Your destiny to experience HIM faithful and true

HIS ministry for resilience as HE makes all things new

 

For all who are wounded in the battle torn

Construe you’re still included to channel prayer for others who mourn

Come gather reputed for giving your all until made whole

Freedom after lucid, rooted, and grounded with compassion to console

Your destiny is genuineness in HIM to understand with breakthrough

HIS ministry is deliverance by HIM in HIS plan for healing and Refuge kept for you

Ever deserted

Ever deceived

Ever devastated

 

With HIM in the end

Never deserted

Never deceived 

Never devastated

 

Ever doubted

Ever debated

Ever debilitated

 

With HIM in Heaven

Forever trusted

Forever answered

Forever new reinstated

 

Words illicit strong emotion

Word are set in motion

Words expressed capture attention

Words impressed capture meaning mentioned

Words spoken catch fire

Words open to inspire

Words count for something

Words amount to nothing

Words end up free falling

Words start a higher calling

Words brought about meaning

Words sought for gleaning

Words I write make sense or not

Words of insight will climax the plot

Words to tell my story

Words uplifted for HIS glory

 

HIS Words are alive and active

HIS Words are to your heart attractive

HIS Words are to your life refractive

HIS Words lead to the ONE who guides and forgives to find salvation

HIS Words plead for you to know new life to give -remind of its translation, designed for a firm foundation, and aligned for a pure relation

HIS Words indeed are truth, abide to live, bind to your heart elation

HIS Words last forever as eternal insight into JESUS

HIS Words cast purpose and vision needed to trust

HIS Words forecast service and provision heeded a must

HIS Words spoken bring about faith to the hearer when listened

HIS Words open to bring about hope to be clearer in acquisition

HIS Words chosen bring about love to be nearer come into fruition, with addition for the Great Commission

HIS Words acclimated are driven within by the Spirit into all Truth to be known, to be grown, and to be shown no longer wander prone

HIS Words activated are given into oneself meaning, healing, and revealing from HIM as the Way, the Truth, and the Life sown no longer falter alone

HIS Words are forever eternal… for YOU have exalted YOUR Word above all YOUR Name Psalm 138:2

 

 

Isaiah 55  

Invitation to the Thirsty

55 “Come, all you who are thirsty,
    come to the waters;
and you who have no money,
    come, buy and eat!
Come, buy wine and milk
    without money and without cost.
Why spend money on what is not bread,
    and your labor on what does not satisfy?
Listen, listen to me, and eat what is good,
    and you will delight in the richest of fare.
Give ear and come to me;
    listen, that you may live.
I will make an everlasting covenant with you,
    my faithful love promised to David.
See, I have made him a witness to the peoples,
    a ruler and commander of the peoples.
Surely you will summon nations you know not,
    and nations you do not know will come running to you,
because of the Lord your God,
    the Holy One of Israel,
    for he has endowed you with splendor.”

Seek the Lord while he may be found;
    call on him while he is near.
Let the wicked forsake their ways
    and the unrighteous their thoughts.
Let them turn to the Lord, and he will have mercy on them,
    and to our God, for he will freely pardon.

“For my thoughts are not your thoughts,
    neither are your ways my ways,”
declares the Lord.
“As the heavens are higher than the earth,
    so are my ways higher than your ways
    and my thoughts than your thoughts.
10 As the rain and the snow
    come down from heaven,
and do not return to it
    without watering the earth
and making it bud and flourish,
    so that it yields seed for the sower and bread for the eater,
11 so is my word that goes out from my mouth:
    It will not return to me empty,
but will accomplish what I desire
    and achieve the purpose for which I sent it.
12 You will go out in joy
    and be led forth in peace;
the mountains and hills
    will burst into song before you,
and all the trees of the field
    will clap their hands.
13 Instead of the thornbush will grow the juniper,
    and instead of briers the myrtle will grow.
This will be for the Lord’s renown,
    for an everlasting sign,
    that will endure forever.”

There is a Lifeline

When feeling like letting go of time

Reach out to find

Hold on to all that is MINE

 

I will lift you up to stand underpinning

On the ROCK of Salvation planned from the very beginning

I will gift you grace and mercy forward convincing toward winning

With compassion comfort the deep regret and sadness brimming

 

All that is lost before you from a past of pain

You can leave it behind for new life to gain

Healing is on its way to face each day’s strain

I grant the faith, hope, and love you’ll need to remain

Freedom comes within when forgiven of our sin

Freedom continues on when fear and doubt are cast out by Love given

Freedom commemorates when restates purpose with greater vision

Freedom captivates when delights in the LORD become ones desires driven

Freedom can’t wait to walk the straight and narrow with greater faith, hope, and love to live in

Freedom coordinates with grace, mercy, and compassion to bring healing within setting captives free from prison

Freedom cries out to listen to wisdom to embrace the Great Commission with decision to serve on mission for a pure religion to reach the widow and orphan in pure devotion forward go on until Heaven reach above risen…

What do I need to do

To get you through

The hardest part of living

 

What do I need to prove

To lead you to what is new into

The hardest heart I’m giving

 

When will you believe

In order to receive

A purpose centered on mission as focused vision within Living Water overflow

 

When will you perceive

In order to conceive

Grace, mercy, and compassion given from above into your below

 

Why do you doubt 

Theres a better way out

To live with faith, hope, and love beyond measure

 

Why do you shout

To who doesn’t already know what it’s all about

A homecoming for your soul HE has sought, He has bought, He has wrought as precious treasure

 

Where are you going

Closed shut blowing in the wind for you could be drawn in openhanded

Receive a place all your own with healing for the pain

 

Where are you growing

Closed shut above the ground for you could be drawn in to be planted

Though you die, new life will sprout appealing to what you’ll gain

 

How are you on your own

Fending for yourself unknown

Hiding until almost dying; question lie inside -fights the nights without light

 

How will you be if not alone

Defending your soul on HIS throne

Abiding until foremost arriving in Heaven beside guide -delights to ride on the heights

Just make it real

Beyond what conceals feel

Just take pain -shield

Beyond kill, destroy, steal

Just send to heal

Beyond the brokenness surreal

 

Just carry on forever

Beyond the daily weather

Just speak truth center

Beyond hearing lies sever

Just listen -compassion’s endeavor

Beyond where understandings never

 

Just realize you matter

Beyond where emotions scatter

Just dream Jacob’s ladder

Beyond earth’s atmosphere flatter

Just await rescues answer

Beyond what caused shatter

 

Just choose to stay

Beyond the hurt betray

Just live each day

Beyond one more today

Just outlast sun’s rays

Beyond horizons leveled ways

 

Just climb mountain peaks

Beyond valleys low steep

Just swim above ocean’s sleep

Beyond mistakes sinking deep

Just soar updrafts keep

Beyond storm clouds leap

 

Just be to do

Beyond with love prove

Just see vision anew

Beyond if darkness grew

Just accept yourself overdue

Beyond guilts shame unglue

 

Just as you are

Beyond your reflections star

Just outlive fear spar

Beyond what’s near and far

Just a needed spark

Beyond out flames dark

 

Just trust faith girth

Beyond a miracles birth

Just trust hope girth

Beyond the miracles rebirth

Just trust love girth

Beyond your miracles worth

 

Just beyond future know reward of an open door

Just beyond fight show as mentor in the war

Just beyond fright grow to restore all the more

Just beyond fear go outpour into others implore

Just beyond freedom overflow encore overcoming what once was before

This poem is from my new post Stand at beavoicefororphans (my other blog that you may or may not follow) that you can read in full.  We take a stand against sexual violence…

 

Hidden for only you child hurting for healing to find will find; entering within faith, hope, and love so kind

Quicken for only you child to receive grace, mercy, and compassion combined to bind together with miracles designed to remind of HIS greater Love to you inclined…

Forbidden is sex abuse, incest, pornography, sex trafficking, rape defined

Ridden by GOD Almighty of abusers, incest perpetrators, pornographers, traffickers, and rapists confined

Stricken by GOD Almighty with HIS HOLY terror, PURE fury, All POWERFUL attack, STRONG DEFENSE infiltrate, and WARRIOR FIGHT against these sinners in the hands of an angry GOD quarantined in agony resigned

 

Light posts

At the start

At the end

Turn on shine

As night fall

 

Inspire most

Love impart

To you send

Burn within entwine

For insight call

 

Where darkness pervades all around

Stay where the Light cascades until found

Until sun’s rays fades the black

Dawn of a new day lays foundation back

 

Come home

From above chart

Course to mend

Time to unwind

Be contrite stall

 

Rest alone

Retune one’s heart

With Him to tend

Soul He does find

To dine with your all

 

Where darkness pervades all around

Stay where the Light cascades until abound

Until sun’s rays fades the black

Dawn of a new day lays foundation on track

 

Alive; atone

Near now from afar

Healing begin open

No longer left behind

Builds up aright Refuge walls

 

Arrive; shown

Promised land correlate your star

Defeat enemies who contend; always will HE defend

Made stronger in HIS will aligned

Guides through breakthrough fight the good fight past what appalls

 

Where darkness pervades all around

Stay where the Light cascades be still in HIS renown

Until sun’s rays fades the black

Dawn of a new day lays foundation in covenant contact

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Before having insurance and beginning my career in the teaching profession, I was playing basketball and tore my ACL.  I was on crutches for awhile.  When I got my first teaching job and a coaching position, I limped with pain.  I continued to pray during the school year for GOD to heal me. What else was there to do anyway? I didn’t give up hope.  I was in pain for quite awhile with no relief in sight.  After 7 months, GOD finally answered and took my pain away.  I was able to walk with free unhindered motion again.  There were times my knee would hurt and I’d remember GOD’s mercy and thank HIM for it.  HE then healed it again and I felt no pain.  This has been a running theme in my life with this wound in my knee.  When it hurts, I thank GOD for HIS mercy and then HE takes away my pain.  Several years ago, I thought of getting surgery on my knee to finally get it fixed.  After getting the MRI done on it, the doctor showed my old ACL injury.  Then he showed me I had a new injury on top of it.  You see, I played basketball again being careful with jumping because I learned that my bad cholesterol was high and I needed to exercise again.  So my thoughts were it’s either my knee or my heart that I prioritize.  I chose to strengthen my heart.  I began exercising at a gym and playing basketball again.  The new injury is a bucket holder meniscus tear along with my ACL tear.  The cost of surgery was very high and I opted for not getting it.  My family’s needs came first and foremost.  I haven’t gotten the surgery to this day and walk around with two wounds in my knee that may never get fixed here on earth.  Ever so often, the pain returns and I thank GOD for HIS mercy in my life and the pain once again dissipates even though the wounds are still present.

My wife has had two strokes in the last year.  The numbness to parts of her body have gone away.  She can still talk.  Sometimes the words don’t come as fluently and finding the right word may be difficult.  She gets headaches in parts of her brain that were affected by the strokes.  She is depressed.  She is depressed because she cannot do as much as she once did, think like she once did, be a part of working and supporting the family more, and being hopeful for a better day is challenged.  Thoughts of what if I do not get well again?  CT scans, MRI, EKG, other heart tests, and blood tests have all come back normal.  However, she doesn’t feel normal.  This has been difficult for her to cope with.  Suicidal thoughts have been present off and on, but she will never commit suicide. To her it is not an option.  I am thankful that GOD provided a job for online teaching that I can do to support our family more so now that she is unable to work along with my teaching job I have in public school.  She has been wounded by unexpected health struggles now.  There may not be an explanation that we find out about for why?  Why did this happen?  What must she do to get back on her feet?  Will she regain abilities again one day?  We will continue to pray and trust GOD through this…  She’s wounded and there may not be complete healing.  At least for now.  In the future?  I hope so, I really do!!  In Heaven, yes!!!…

Last Sunday while I was teaching online at night, I heard my dog barking emphatically.  I kept on teaching for this was my job to do.  When I got a break, I went to tell my two oldest kids to check on him.  I knew something wasn’t right.  I had to get back to teaching.  My kids didn’t go check on our dog.  When teaching was through, I went myself to check on him and he was bleeding at various parts of his left front leg.  We have a metal paneled fence and it has a 2 or 3 inch gap at the bottom.  My initial evaluation was that he got his leg caught in the fence and there were two places with jagged edges and that is why he had multiple cuts.  My wife and daughter took him to an emergency vet center an hour away.  The Vet said that there were definite puncture wounds from another dog.  As I rethought what happened, I believe another dog was able to grab a hold onto his leg with its teeth and pulled his leg under the fence biting and yanking on it.  His leg rubbed up against the metal fence panel’s bottom edge as well as the two places that had jagged points.  The Vet had to amputate one of his toes, because of the trauma done to it.  He was put on antibiotics and pain meds.  A cone was placed around his neck to keep him from bothering the sutures put in to close the wounds and allow for quicker healing to take place.  Well, the cone wasn’t long enough for him not to lick his wound where the toe was amputated.  I called the E.R. vet clinic today to ask about him licking this wound where it is still raw.  They told me that, he needed another cone to wear so he doesn’t keep licking it or it won’t heal.  I took him an hour away to get a new cone for him and to see if anything else needs to be done.  The vet came to tell me that she would prescribe a stronger antibiotic and that she would not be able to close the wound due to there not being enough skin to put sutures in to cover it.  She said the wound will have to heal on its own.  She told me to run water on it like hydrotherapy for 10 minutes and put an ointment on it once a day.  He was so dependent on me this week to show him love and comfort.  He was definitely traumatized and needed the attention and care.  He was not happy tonight with the cool water running over the wound.  He looked at me differently than the previous times of feeding him and letting him drink holding the bowl up to him for easier access with the cone around his head hampering him a bit.  He hates the cold for he is short haired and the cold water made him shiver.  It’s winter and he doesn’t like being outside.  He was coming in at night to stay in the kennel every night before all this and now he stays inside most of the day too in order to rest and recover.  Hopefully the wound heals on its own and he will walk easier again even without one of his toes.

Sometimes we experience wounds that do not fully heal here on earth.  Some wounds may take a long time for healing to occur and we have to wait…  Some wounds have to heal on its own and there will be a loss involved that needs to be grieved.  We will enter Heaven with scars for sure and only be completely healed there…  Even so, I will keep praying for more healing now and all my days that I live…  Keep fighting and overcoming even when life isn’t fair and things aren’t going the way you expected…

If you’ve been wounded in any way, trust the LORD for your healing HE will give here or in Heaven…  Life is a battle so let HIM help you if you’re a wounded soldier (emotionally, mentally, physically, spiritually)…

 

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Eyes open

Word spoken

Recollect broken

Youthful lust once fond of left in ruin

Turn away from again to look with HIS Light newly see upon

Now PURE freedom

Won for me in the SON

 

Mind open

Word spoken

Recollect broken

Schizo-fragments stuck in rewind relived on and on as peace is far from flung

Thoughts to renew and to choose overcoming faith to fill-up again with the living once more walk among

Now SOUND freedom

Won for me in the SON

 

Heart open

Word spoken

Recollect broken

Fear ridden unwanted bond

For HIS unfailing love again still respond

Now REVIVED freedom

Won for me in the SON

 

Soul open

Word spoken

Recollect broken

Lost and tormented correspond

For HIS needed compassion in life’s race again to run

Now RESTORED freedom

Won for me in the SON

 

Spirit open

Word spoken

Recollect broken

Chains imprisoned all hope but disappeared gone barely holding on trying to delight in HIM alone clung

For HIS mercy thirsty awaiting to soar again above the storm beyond

Now RESURRECTED freedom

Won for me in the SON

Somehow will

Feel my way

Until I find YOU

 

Press on still

Heal I pray

Will You bind up their wounds

 

Somehow fill

Appeal one day

Thrill to shine into

 

All those hurting ill

Real hope turns away dismay

Will faith prevail soon

 

Somehow fulfill

Kneel, walk, obey

Skill of love never to fail within HIM; Triune

 

Somehow….Come now…Some way…Some day…

 

Will happen in Your timing

Faith not so blinding

Hope and a future aligning

Pure true Love finding

For new life unwinding

Mercy and compassion reminding

Until LIGHT cascades over the darkness eternally shining

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Fallen deep pit

Hidden pitch black

Walled in steep outwit

Forbidden niche lack

All alone sit

Sudden despair attack

On my own unfit

Backslidden rebellion retract

Mood swings low until hollow only the negativity transmit

Suicidal thoughts screams overthrow into mind hack

Guilt and shame drown with an attempt as reality hit

Stunned in shock with voice stolen by enemy flak

Fear overwhelmed almost overtaken by demons as I waited in transit

Overcome was my soul out of whack

Hell made real stuck between good vs. evil with personality split

 

Sullen weep uplift

Freedom bring back

Called within;  keep lit

Seventy x seven forgiven;  does it make up the slack

Failure of wrongs confess to HIM admit

Open door of hope impact

A 3 chord strand of rope equipped

Burden of apprehension weigh upon unpack

Light of love shone won’t quit

Broken and contrite as a matter of fact

Healing the rift between my heart, soul, and spirit

Kingdom care steer on track

Given a sound mind again as I renew it

Heaven’s destination remind where treasures stack with compassions destiny mine to be exact

Faith to live on now the pre-requisite

 

 

 

 

 

I found this song after I wrote the poem below:

 

Just a passerby

Had I known why

You cry in the night

A pause in my day light

I’d stand beside

Walk with you in the fight

Lead you to hold HIS hand tight

Healing to be found despite the fright

 

Just a passerby

Had I any insight

You stuck in wrongs plight

A pause for prayer to make right

I’d help you understand forgiveness as snow pure white

Standing to intercede with High Priest from Heaven’s height

Lead you to find freedom inside

Healing to be found no longer to hide

 

Just a passerby

Had no one took the time for me nearby

I was unable to fly away into open sky

A pause finds depression stuck in negative thoughts gone awry

You’d have said or thought there’s no hope if I’d confide

Crawling toward silence in my demise wandering into darkness of suicide

Lead me to remember in whom I can confide

Healing to be found where my haunting fears subside

 

Just a passerby

Had You given up on me?  All Your help deny??

I called on You in faith lost and alone despite

A pause with broken spirit heart contrite

You’d answer my prayer to rescue and not despise

Carrying me upon Your shoulder home after finding me leaving ninety-nine

Lead me to safe green pasture… in You I begin to delight

Healing to be found restoring my soul into new life until my spirit reignite no longer on my own left behind to die

 

 

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Shawshank Redemption Movie Poster

 

Traumatic miscues

Almost lost it all

Throes toward tragedy, sieves sin’s broken agony

Close to death’s final blow

Enemy heavy breathing in my scent

Ready to kill, steal, destroy

Scared

Stranded in plenty offshore fears

Sinking into deep pit; grope around… will imprisoned

 

Dramatic rescues

Utmost Name I call

Shows amnesty; gives within hope and sanity

Knows loves extra mile to go

Befriending me heaving;  my Defense

Steady to give abundant life, heal, free to enjoy

Spared

Granted many more years

Seeking… HE remit;  3 chord strand of rope found -still listened

 

Emphatic breakthroughs

Chose to knock down walls

Dose for remedy, lives again open vitality

Boast in the LORD all the while overflow

Lending openly… to any breathing, grieving, leaving with reluctance

Mending to live, yield, see an envoy

Cared

Openhanded compassion toward tears

Blinking…  Keep lit…  faith, hope, and love abound until arisen

 

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Isaiah 44:22

22 I have swept away your offenses like a cloud,
    your sins like the morning mist.
Return to me,
    for I have redeemed you.”

 

 

Depression locked in night

Faith awakes absent sight

Hope engaging the fright

Love emerging when contrite

Dreams unlock with Light

HIS Spirit within ignite

Walk not by might

Mind links to Heaven’s height

Heart opens to new life

Soul HE restores aright

Spirit free saves from plight

Body beats to join the fight

Compassion helps others be bright

Rescue casualties caught in rewind

For one lost sheep leave ninety nine

Once broken chains no longer tight

Share story left behind

Forward journey go remind

Inward peace HE gives to find

When you’re ready, you will trust in GOD again… you have that choice, you own that decision only you can make, you have the will to empower trust in HIM whenever you want to practice it…

Trust is a heart and soul thing that grows after you set your mind to begin the endeavor again… You can learn to trust in HIM with moments (like your move to a new place) and choose to trust HIM for healing (like your lifelong journey through trauma/abuse to triumph/astounding) whenever you want… When you fall back to not trusting, from that low point and helpless perspective; you can once again look up in trust to your Heavenly FATHER who gives good gifts and wants to love and care for you… You may choose to trust in moments or a daily decision through prayer (prayer is turning to HIM in trust) and pouring out your heart (through talking to HIM out loud, quietly inside, or writing it out)…

You’re loved and cared for not matter what… You’ll get to know/relearn HIS love and care as you decide to trust when you choose to… I am proud of you when you choose to reach out to those weak in need of love and care… In your weakness, JESUS is strong… Being there for them in being who you are matters and is doing good despite what you may feel or think about yourself… You are showing faith in action; doing GOD’s will in doing HIS Word:

Psalm 41
1 Blessed are those who have regard for the weak;
the Lord delivers them in times of trouble.
2 The Lord protects and preserves them—
they are counted among the blessed in the land—
he does not give them over to the desire of their foes.
3 The Lord sustains them on their sickbed
and restores them from their bed of illness.

verse 1 “regard for the weak”; for me the orphans, for you may be anyone weak you reach out to (orphans, special needs children/adults, homeless, abused and neglected souls, widows/widowers, or elderly)

Focus on these Words above and let it become one of your life verses/life mantra…

These verses helped me hang on, believe and trust, and reach out and one day HE answered these promises in my own life… These awesome Words came true through HIM and through me, for me, and in me… I still cannot fathom the turn-around in my life because of JESUS the Living and active Word bringing this about and GOD the FATHER’s mercy and compassion for me…

Look carefully and choose to believe and trust for these to be your benefits as well:

1) delivers them in times of trouble
2) protects and preserves them / does not give them over to the desire of their foes (who want to steal, kill, or destroy; suicide)
3) restores them from their bed of illness (physically or emotionally or mentally or socially or spiritually; for me all 5)

If HE did it for me; I know HE will do it for you… Why? because HE is true to HIS Word and desires to be faithful in a person’s life
When? in HIS timing; so difficult to wait I know (took years for me) maybe for you quicker than my experience
How? in small and grand ways along the journey; sometimes miraculously
Who? you (for you do have regard for the weak)
Where? inside you

I know I went through what I went through to be a help/support to others weaker… This is ultimately the outcome from what I didn’t think was fair, what I didn’t understand, why I was abandoned, why I was often alone in my trauma and not knowing why GOD wasn’t there bringing me through like I knew HE could; why it wasn’t right a way – yet waited for me to learn mercy and compassion at the core of who I am now… HE took me through the depths of darkness to reach out to anybody now with profound faith, hope, and love… with confidence in HIM and who HE is and what I now know HE can/will do…

Much of my trauma was self-inflicted (so full of guilt and shame) from turning away from GOD in rebellious youthful sin and desires being as lost as one can be. Yet I turned to HIM and HE still answered me… me? why me? why HE didn’t abandon me further? why did HE not leave me in my sin? HIS love is greater than anyone can know or fathom… Now I live to show HIS love I know and continue to attempt to fathom… If I didn’t learn through painful depths to know HIS love, mercy, and compassion; then how would I know HIM as HE is and learn that I could reach those who may be in need… HE will choose and use the weak and unlearned to profound the strong and wise… There is so much darkness and cruelty in this world. HE takes some of us through trauma and darkness so we can be a light that shines in it as HE rescues precious children, men, and women that need HIM… sometimes to reveal what HIS love is through us… We choose to pray for and be there present and intercede for them because we know… we understand… we will stand for them… we will choose to love… we will choose purity… we will love purely… Blessed are the pure in heart, for they will see GOD (Matthew 5:8)…

You’re not a failure… You’re more than a conqueror through HIM who gives you strength… When you are weak come to HIM for rest… When you can’t do it anymore, wait on HIM for renewed strength… HE is faithful to HIS Word even when we are not…

Oh and let’s look at Psalm 41 vs. 4

I said, “Have mercy on me, Lord;
heal me, for I have sinned against you.”

What if we have sinned in some way!! Well I asked the LORD for mercy and to heal me of course… And so, HE healed me… me… and you?… you too!!!…

Ok! So you just got the wave from HIS ocean that was building within me to reach the shore of those needing mercy that will also be a blog post for my website that I have been wanting to write on Psalm 41 for a long, long while… I wrote this for you for sure; yet it is also for anyone else needing encouragement as well…

I reminisce…

Fight back;  persistence -found to be free

Temptations attack;  resistance -found purity

No slack;  repentance -found mercy

Take flak;  admittance -found family

Have a knack;  HIS assistance -found empathy

Back on track;  insistence -found grace aplenty

Heavy load unpack;  outdistance -found eternity

No more lack;  coexistence -found love fully

 

If it weren’t for the LORD to reminisce…

I would have torn apart;  ripped in pieces -so haunter makes remiss unsound into self-pity

What would be left if my soul deceases -no longer exist sound silenced empty

You rescued me in perfect love so fear ceases -daunter desist sound heart accept privily

You lighten burdens as Your peace increases -stronger to resist sound mind kept reassuringly

You’re the Giver of new life leases -song astir to persist sound spirit leapt freely

From our chains and our prisons You pardon releases -from wrongs turn away with grace assist sound joyfully adept with purpose and vision equipped fittingly

Awaken

Quick, partake

of life again

 

Forsake then

evil, relate

with HIM to defend

 

Retake in

love, heartache

will begin to mend

 

Remake when

open, make

good HIS promises as Your Friend

What’s your mental illness?

Find HIM in the stillness

Draw near and HE draws near to bless

with willingness…

if you ask… -to give relief from grief and break chains that have you bound from outward stress

if you seek… -to find refreshing from fears threshing all around distress

if you knock… -to open the door to restore from agitations that drown and inward press

HE will soon provide your soul’s needed rest

To persevere in prayer for healing from anxieties that oppress

To make it up and out, through to the other side of darkness

To find hope and purpose arise from under life’s duress

Within HIS reach is peace of a sound mind to once again possess

Within HIS reach is peace of a pure heart to once again find more love rather than less and less

Within HIS reach is peace of a restored soul to once again enter into the light of the living acquiesce

Within HIS reach is a peace of a free spirit to once again soar from the nest awaiting Heaven’s address

So delight yourself in the LORD holding onto HIS rope of 3 chord strand not easily broken to stay out of that prison that arrests

For more of HIM move toward with trusting openness

HE will give the desires of your heart as a reward in being HIS invited guest becoming a part of HIS family into relational oneness with adoption’s kindness

You’re more than a conqueror in Christ whose blood for you outpoured for all of who you are with all your mess, a valuable treasure, HE did purchase

You’re worth not giving up on so wait on the LORD and implore for HIS help in your depression, press on…  press on…  no longer suppress what you want and need to express and confess;  all of you HE accepts

For HIM to renew strength on HIS eagle’s wings to soar above the darkness to bring HIS Light and Love to those below with HIS Presence offering that same forgiveness, acceptance, and healing’s essence

Hear HIS mighty roar resonance remembering HE fights your battles in the war uplifting you out of death’s sentence

 

 

 

The Mystery of You

May I discover the new You will do

Love lays down life for HIS friends

Knowing I am one of them reminded of again

What if you send me?

Calling in the silence mayday! mayday!

May day break through the lies

May day light shine in my eyes through Your eyes into their eyes

Find lost and lonely ones; guides

To HIM who helps each one arise

Surprise better than birthdays ties

Applies mercy answering maydays cries

Pressures and fears soon subsides

Applies compassion answering hearts deepest replies

Cries of guilt and shame confess

Cries of hurt and loss prior to repress

Cries of joy recover love’s peace and rest

Every tear appears in Heaven’s jars HE collects

Nothing hidden will HE neglect

All of heart, soul, mind, body, spirit to HIM reconnects

All wounds HE brings healing to; affix HIS stripes intersects

All you’re meant to be HE resurrects

All your scars remember HIS own willingly now follow as HE directs

Your Mystery is Salvation found and redemption that abounds

Bought with a price not your own, never to be forsaken or left all alone

Where nothing can ever sever in pure true love that surrounds forever

Your Mystery is now our Mystery to reveal and prove

Broken Open

Posted: August 13, 2017 in depression, mental illness, Poems, Suicide
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Childlike open

Older broken

Broken down

Open up

Broken dreams behind

Open dreams find

Broken heart apart

Open heart restart

Broken life falling

Open life calling

Broken mind haunt

Open mind want

Broken soul drown

Open soul found

Broken spirit wound

Open spirit soon

Once broken

Since open

Broken to newly open

Reopen to heal the broken

Broken lies

Open wise

Broken thunder dark black clouds

Open clear blue skies enshrouds

Broken love

Open love

Broken open

Open broken

Broken seed planted underneath in the dark toward a future ripe; now alone out of sight

Open tree granted shade beneath in the light toward a mature archetype; endow grown stout in height

Broken;  restore to be forgiven

Open door to see Heaven

Love the broken

Love in the open

If broken, take time the whole of you to mend

When open, awake, find soul anew to tend

Childlike open once again

Older broken to become a friend