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I remember memories that replay yesterday and wonder why

I remember memories that sway back and forth today and sigh

I remember memories that delay like deja vu arrayed in the future reapplied

I remember memories of mistakes and failures made causing pain I’d rather hide

I remember memories held at bay I’d rather not say went awry

I remember memories once afraid no longer make me prey in the night

I remember memories laid bare so much stronger that I pray won’t be how I die

I remember memories of hell’s visit down the broadway with sin’s choice for entrance prefaced I’d preferably decide to contrive and be deprived

I remember memories like shade in the hottest summer to evade under a tree think twice about while I reside with the littlest faith arise

I remember memories where I strayed until found by the ONE I betrayed now unto will abide with hope to enter HIS arms in Heaven arrive

I remember memories of fear weighed heavily upon this casualty of war that love conveyed in order for it to disappear and heal me inside

I remember memories that slay my pride to display the humility I now allow to guide

I remember memories that give way to HIS grace now to follow as I soar above the storm on the heights by HIS Spirit not by might

I remember memories that trade my punishment with HIS mercy instead that covers me always new every morning to find supplied as I remain contrite

I remember memories that pervade of HIS compassion embraced that erased the oppression and loneliness while it trained me to comfort others with a depth of understanding comprised

I remember memories where HIS truth sustained and prayers uplifted with thanks maintained a peace that surpassed all understanding guarding my heart and mind in JESUS Christ

I remember memories spent alone with HIM that I can now say will remain as I’ve been taught HIS Word to obey where I’ve been tried as gold refined, where I’ve been aligned to HIS will defined, and where I’ve dined with HIM to always remind me I’m HIS and HE is mine for all time…

Faith in HIM represent
Mind renew always with wisdom eloquent
Thankful YOURS known to intersect for minds to reprove of heaven's advice lent
Riveting amount is opulent
Letting one see what is transcendent
Toward the shore for new life that is imminent

Hope is what is sent
Soul restore always defend
Make YOURS shown to resurrect for souls redo to win who arise again
Giving out encouragement
Getting to dream of what is meant
For more of a future that is relevant

Love every moment
Heart revive always open
Take YOURS alone to reflect for hearts to remove fear within comprise to mend
Living fount covenant
Setting free awoken
Pour forth the Word to be spoken

Grace, mercy, and compassion evident
Spirit refresh always with peace mitigant
Break through with YOURS sown to reconnect for spirits that regrew like butterflies ascend
Pivoting stout when repent
Forgetting past things that were arrogant
Soar North above the storms resilient

Broken Dream Until Mended Reality

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There is grace for every broken dream

Onward walk to continue being

Onward unseen until mended reality seeing

Onward forward steps keep repeating

Onward go on for you’re worth your heart beating

Onward becoming who you’re meant to be rather than retreating or worse yet leaving

Onward knowing HE lives at the right hand of GOD with scars for you interceding

Onward heeding HIS voice of encouraging to continue enduring and persevering even if for now it’s just breathing

On HIM always lean…

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Press on rather than regress despite feeling depressed

Pass the test to go on beyond the trials and tribulations that oppress

Continue with faith in the SON for making progress

Continue to hope in HIM to find rest

Continue in HIS love which is greatest and will work out what is best

Choose life and blessing over death and cursing that HE died to give you as your inspiring and motivating quest

Draw near to HIM and HE will draw nearer sincerest as you pour out your heart to HIM in confidence rather than those feelings just suppress

Reassess life as a maturing process, mess of sin with guilt and shame confess to find forgiveness, and then will profess HIS evidence realized further along life’s journey of HIS faithfulness

Focus is more when there is less…

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Less to not weigh you down in fear replaced by HIS love held dear

Less worry in your heart found in HIM who makes it disappear

Less weary chasing after empty success that falls aground like tears

Less willful of your own plans that fail here

Less want of the world’s lust wandering into sin that causes pain and torment so severe

Less wasting away in your illness with HIS acceptance of all that you are by caring for yourself to improve mental, emotional, physical, and spiritual health adhere

Less wavering in unbelief by simply believing HE will turn your life around with HIS patience and gentleness steer

Less wondering about what ifs of the past that HE uses in your future to help others made more clear

Less while HE becomes more to you during your extended years

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More faith in HIS truth so you’re no longer unruly that will no longer duly offend

More hope and trust in HIS ways you can truly depend on now that you’re newly opened

More love in HIS life abiding to be a light shining in darkness to give freely and often

More mercy from HIS healing throne of Heaven that is new every morning sent

More compassion from HIS heart to listen to others vent -even from suicide may prevent

More grace from HIS hand to lead and guide you along righteous paths that will leave no regret in retrospect

More of HIS Spirit welcoming within who will comfort you with HIS Presence, counsel you with HIS wisdom, and care for your well-being with moans expressed according to GOD’s will for your life when words of prayer fail to connect

More delighting in HIM to be given the desires of your heart meant to mend your dreams again made relevant where nightmares can’t circumvent

More freedom will come after suffering through a set timeframe where to live is Christ and to die is gain that is effective when wait on GOD’s timing and not your own as you wait to resurrect into HIS arms as Heaven’s resident

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Wait on HIM for new strength returning to soar above the storms on eagle’s wings freeing

Wait on HIM for renewing your mind with truth until having soundness of peace releasing

Wait on HIM for reviving your heart recreating within purity and right desires brought back into the land of the living reconvening

Wait on HIM for rescue unto redemption forthcoming that will restore your soul and implore within you vision, purpose, and meaning that’s increasing

Wait on HIM for refilling your cup to overflowing until refreshing your spirit into HIS will agreeing and being a doer of HIS Word unleashing

Wait on HIM watching as HE wins every battle in your war raging against the enemy who attempts at deceiving

Wait on HIM to direct your steps through open doors revealing

Wait on HIM for HIS promises open handed toward until receiving

Wait on HIM for complete healing that makes you whole whether here on earth or there in Heaven as the great reward for continually believing

YOU were there when I fell in the deepest pit of utter black darkness wraith of hope depressed

YOU were there when I laid down and could barely sit up to muster any faith to cope in my mess

YOU were there when I was a shell of emptiness with shallow breath as evidence not sure whether I’d ever have steps to be deft again or mend even from your nurturing obligations

YOU were there when I was in hell of loneliness like a death sentence, but you never left as I wept and hardly slept in weakness rend often to descend furthering complications

YOU were there in my broken brokenness lost in strife

YOU were there to awaken awareness into new life

YOU were there to believe for me when I couldn’t just be

YOU were there to perceive YOU’d free when I wouldn’t trust Thee

YOU were there when I couldn’t do anything

YOU were there to pull me through everything

YOU were there to encourage and rebuke readily

YOU were there to give reassurance resolute steadily

YOU were there until we were a growing family

YOU were there to fulfill that we were overflowing avidly

YOU were there when I was lost, then amazed by YOU found with YOUR grace, mercy, and compassion all around no longer the same without any shame

I am here because YOU counted the cost, and raised me up off the ground with purpose, vision, and a future with passion to abound now stronger for YOUR Name renown to proclaim

Stranded on an island a lost man

Reprimanded for depression -why banned?

Openhanded to bystanders disband

Empty handed as one meanders then to remand

Withstand the pressure of hurricane force in sinking sand

Unplanned shock in full measure restrained remorse can’t understand

Branded with mental illness desiring only help and support in demand

 

Broken down and fallen apart

Fallen ground and broken heart

Sullen around look to restart

Fullness in HIM will impart

Newness of life again jumpstart

Openness to love won’t depart

Stillness set apart for HIS will a work of art

 

Found what I was looking for

Only in HIM the way to restore

All that was lost and taken before

Given back more and more still implore

Persevere to live on for Whom will reward

Run this race face forward press on toward

Heaven’s gaze trace and erase sins failure in war

Poor in spirit chase embrace from HIM once more

 

A soldier stronger no longer distracted

Beholder of HIS strength await contracted

Bolster in faith, hope, and love to be refracted

Mold occur within by the Potter for HIS use to serve impacted

A shoulder to cry on with mercy and compassion protracted

Exposure of years of pain make me who I am into faith and grace extracted

Closure given about my past with composure for the future with HIM attracted

Disclosure driven in the mission to encourage others to fight on whenever contacted 

 

2 Timothy 2:3-4

Share in suffering as a good soldier of Christ Jesus.

No soldier gets entangled in civilian pursuits, since his aim is to please the one who enlisted him.

Looking Heavenward to point you to the new

Things above eternal you happen into a rescue

Finding faith, hope, and love that remains

With grace, mercy, and compassion that sustains

Will you see true North’s Morning Star

Engraved in the palm of HIS hand within the scar

Your name written in the Lamb’s Book of Life secure

Your heart now open first look into becoming pure

A hope to see GOD in the near future with focus clearer

Available and willing to do HIS will as you draw nearer

Relatable so fulfilling to be still and just know HIM more

Awaiting direction to go and do the commands HE gave to restore

Shining reflection to grow as HIS feet and hands to save souls implore

Forgetting what is behind pressing on to run the race of faith the goal reach toward

Letting the Spirit lead and guide into all truth overflowing with power to teach then reward

 

Everything fades

Far away

 

Except the Word

Forever stay

 

The Word made flesh did portray

In life, in death, in risen life again convey

 

Gone in a day

Tomorrow come what may

 

HE is yesterday, today, and forever the same

Faith, hope, and love remain

 

Past memories may replay

Missing parts and broken hearts somehow slay

 

Let it go as you pray

Move forward beyond the black and white through even gray

 

Burdens so heavily upon you weigh

Place them down at HIS feet lay

 

Darkness and confusion led astray

For HIS Light and peace inside for trade

 

You’re fearfully and wonderfully made

You’re meant to live forgiven and free displayed

 

A future and a hope with HIM survey

Ordered steps HE gives as seen in the night sky of stars arrayed

 

Don’t give up if there’s delay

HE promises for you, HE will make a way…

 

All you are to HIM trust and obey

Through every time you are afraid

 

Choose courage to be brave

Remembering all that HE gave

 

Spend time in HIS Presence only crave

Delight in HIM who gives your desires even beyond the grave

 

A 3 chord strand not easily broken braid

A firm foundation on the Rock of Salvation is laid

 

So stand strong to build your life upon HIM pave

HIS love for you will relinquish the fear that HE died for you to save

 

Mine or yours having fierce suicidal thoughts are not a sin in its reoccurring more than meditation

Mine or yours having fierce suicidal thoughts are a battle we can win enduring the onslaught and persevering until disaster passes without retaliation

My frontline reality is fighting beyond suicidal ideation into dreams desires for realization

My focus centrality is encouraging all to make it out within HIS remediation

My frame of reference is faith, hope, and love to abound from the Creator to HIS creation

My family I live for so I continue to press on with determination

My faith is that I don’t live for myself alone, but unto HIM in adoration

My freedom is to live pure to be secure in God the FATHER’s hands for the SON’s traits rebuilding within this clay as HIS formation

 

I know some will overcome every moment into freedom in the future with just being blood bought

I know some will succumb to its’ warring thoughts, yet with faith as small as a mustard seed will put trust in HIM continually knowing its not for nought

I know some will be numb from the scarring its wrought, yet rise above into new life after whats fraught

I know some will come to know JESUS once sparring alone to discover who helps in the battles fought

I know some will become found to enter in HIM after the jarring being stuck as HE lifts up with compassion from the pit caught

I know some will be from outer darkness until starring with HIM from mercy inward being taught

I know some will fall seven times and rise again 8, since each turn for help is hope and strength in HIM having sought

I know some will face their giants with grace until each one is slain to stand above the onslaught

 

Darkness doesn’t stand a chance

Against the Light

Making all things seen

 

Evil doesn’t stand a chance

Against One’s Love

Setting captives free

 

Depression doesn’t stand a chance

Against new Life

Accepting oneself even in misery

 

Mental Illness doesn’t stand a chance

Against lessons learned

Pressing on despite its history

 

Suicidal ideation doesn’t stand a chance

Against my cries coming to YOUR ears listening

Letting go to live on in future’s Mystery

What if there’s a cure

What if there isn’t

What if you live pure

What if you didn’t

A cure will be

Either here or there

Pure will help secure you’ll see

Either now or later care to be aware

The cure is to be pure that will secure you within

Forgiveness is sure to endure turning from worlds lusts contradictions that lure

 

What if dreams come true

What if they don’t

What if a vision forms anew

What if it won’t

A dream come true will be

Either here or there

A vision anew will help when arisen you’ll see

Either now or later care to be aware

The dream to be true with new vision arisen will occur within

Conviction will bring decision to share faith, hope, and love on mission to free from prison those who’ll listen

 

What if the future brings relief

What if it doesn’t

What if nurture uplifts beneath

What if it wasn’t

A future with relief will be 

Either here or there

 Nurture will give with return beneath you’ll see

Either now or later care to be aware

The future relief is to nurture through grief for healing to stir within

Searcher for the wounds that hurts your mind, heart, soul and spirit will further along your purpose to belong here with fervor

Lost my mind along the way

Regained compassion in my heart to guide

Lost my peace along the way

Regained faith inside

Lost my strength along the way

Regained hope in weakness despite

Lost my way along the way

Regained love for those nearby

Lost my confidence along the way

Regained trust with HIM beside

Lost ability along the way

Regained grace in the by and by

Lost it all at one point along the way

Regained new life from mercy given when HE decides

Lost in suffering along the way

Regained peace when HE heard my cries

Lost in the crowd along the way

Regained a shelter in which to hide

Lost connection along the way

Regained my soul that will abide

Lost in doubt along the way

Regained a sound mind 

Lost in fear along the way

Regained rekindled spirit with new purpose and vision to find

Lost in the past along the way

Regained a future and a hope to unwind what’s behind

Just make it real

Beyond what conceals feel

Just take pain -shield

Beyond kill, destroy, steal

Just send to heal

Beyond the brokenness surreal

 

Just carry on forever

Beyond the daily weather

Just speak truth center

Beyond hearing lies sever

Just listen -compassion’s endeavor

Beyond where understandings never

 

Just realize you matter

Beyond where emotions scatter

Just dream Jacob’s ladder

Beyond earth’s atmosphere flatter

Just await rescues answer

Beyond what caused shatter

 

Just choose to stay

Beyond the hurt betray

Just live each day

Beyond one more today

Just outlast sun’s rays

Beyond horizons leveled ways

 

Just climb mountain peaks

Beyond valleys low steep

Just swim above ocean’s sleep

Beyond mistakes sinking deep

Just soar updrafts keep

Beyond storm clouds leap

 

Just be to do

Beyond with love prove

Just see vision anew

Beyond if darkness grew

Just accept yourself overdue

Beyond guilts shame unglue

 

Just as you are

Beyond your reflections star

Just outlive fear spar

Beyond what’s near and far

Just a needed spark

Beyond out flames dark

 

Just trust faith girth

Beyond a miracles birth

Just trust hope girth

Beyond the miracles rebirth

Just trust love girth

Beyond your miracles worth

 

Just beyond future know reward of an open door

Just beyond fight show as mentor in the war

Just beyond fright grow to restore all the more

Just beyond fear go outpour into others implore

Just beyond freedom overflow encore overcoming what once was before

A world turn to ice

Rotation seems to stop -test

The roll of the dice

 

Grow up to release stress

Resistance to change

Succumb to nevertheless

 

Desire to be someone

Lost in the night from days depressed

Fade with disappearance of the sun

 

Where becomes the focus more or less

Inward view at darkness strange

Hell on earth felt with mental illness

 

Battle is in my mind

Life or death hangs in the balance hard pressed

Can’t help but look for a sign

 

Negative thoughts overtake intense

Fear and doubt narrows outlooks range

Future dread, past enchains, present in suspense

 

Let go self care

Minimalizing nourishment starving inside as my guest

Brain eating itself deceiving now aware

 

Cold heart mourn trespassed east to west

Soul torn in unrest

Frozen spirit forlorn tests distressed

Mind stuck on warning/warning/warning/warn?!. digress

Perfect storm enters inside to derange

Panic stricken hidden within head’s walls torments

 

Suicide has access

How come I acquiesce

Open the door, crossed the line oppressed

 

Suicidal hours pass suppress

Relentless until possess -success?!.

Drown out voices in excess

 

No such attempt a success…

Come up for air with will still to live reassess

Arise soaken wet convalesce

 

Hitch a ride back to civilization egress

At a loss that death somehow did outguess finality this time, how to process?

Did I go too far with the way I transgress?

 

Parents sullen expression hopeless -turn their back and walk away

My only hope is Heaven above to hear my cries to HIM confess

Scared the enemy stalks in this darkness; hearing breaths closing in for attack as I pray

 

In time JESUS answers to rescue, restore, redeem to repossess

Relationship with the LORD reestablished over the years with interchange

Taken back into the sheepfold to learn trust has been an ongoing process

 

All HE did for me I can’t express fully in my writings or with my spoken words, but I try

Yet, JESUS, is HIS precious name I will forever profess

Since HE has heard my wavering cries, I will walk with HIM no longer to deny for faith, hope, and love now unto others apply…

 

Frozen ice melts with the SON press on Heavenward progress

Saves lives, softens hearts, sanctifies minds, sets spirits free in wondrous and beautiful exchange

Casts out fear with perfect love HE has won to bless…

  

 

Time is on our side

Some will say

But is it? Delay decay…

 

Time is in HIS hands

Yesterdays, todays, and tomorrows

This is for sure -I know Who helps us through our sorrows…

 

We aren’t promised tomorrow at any time

In fact

There’s no going back.  Or can we?  Pack?  Step into a time machine hijack?

 

No, odds are stacked against us and left us out of whack -but we can take time to remember, reminisce, revisit again whereas only HE can turn back the hands of time to redeem…

Though older

There is youth regret with desire to start over

 

We can start over and with time become much wiser

There’s no getting younger age wise to retract

There is backtrack to ask for forgiveness white as snow to be exact

 

Time stands still

Love can do that;  become young at heart to keep intact facing the facts head on -make a comeback

However brief and for however long is its lifelong impact…

 

There’s still time

For love to carry on

Choose to make a difference before its gone

 

Time is of the essence

Find love in HIS Presence

Be filled up with overflowing cup upon a mountain top experience

 

Time is a healer;  heals all wounds

Come back down into the valley of the shadow

To help our fellow brother or sister below…  Death may come fast, all of a sudden, and everybody know or occur solo so slow -either way let love show…

 

Time flies when you’re having fun

So time dies when you’re not -no, it’s for faith inside to grow… hope inside to know… love inside reaching out to bestow…

Faith, hope, and love remains as HE alone sustains wherever we are and wherever we go…

 

Time changes everything

We are changed, it’s true, as we walk along

Changed by the sadness and bitterness or changed to maturity ongoing with each new dawn…

 

Running out of time

Make moments count even so

An eternal fount awaits beyond the rainbow

 

At times, let go of time constraints

Enjoy the still and quiet silence or choose opposite of any violence toward others or yourself; begin a new endeavor

A goal may be to get through whatever the weather; give up never, yet ready for forever…

 

Time to come in

Come in from the cold -no longer alone;  come bold to the throne of grace to obtain grace and mercy in times of need until found a home; come hold on until the disaster passes over -out of the war zone

Rest your weary soul in HIM; bought at a price not your own…

 

Time is now

Act in such a way to bring honor, glory, and praise to our Creator

Best to do so sooner, better late than never, or miss out all together later

 

Time to go

On a trip of adventure ready for departure

Make lasting memories to capture ever ready to really leave this earth with the rapture

 

It’s time

Time to know the Way, the Truth, and the Life

So that your time eternally is spent in Heaven beyond internal sin, death’s sentence, pain and sickness, screaming solo, and negative strife

 

This time…

I live not for myself alone

I’m here for who I love;  making HIM known…

 

 

Ecclesiastes 3:1-8

A Time for Everything

There is a time for everything,
    and a season for every activity under the heavens:

    a time to be born and a time to die,
    a time to plant and a time to uproot,
    a time to kill and a time to heal,
    a time to tear down and a time to build,
    a time to weep and a time to laugh,
    a time to mourn and a time to dance,
    a time to scatter stones and a time to gather them,
    a time to embrace and a time to refrain from embracing,
    a time to search and a time to give up,
    a time to keep and a time to throw away,
    a time to tear and a time to mend,
    a time to be silent and a time to speak,
    a time to love and a time to hate,
    a time for war and a time for peace.

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Faith will find a way

Find a way to hold on

Walk In the race until agree to run

Tend to while fighting the good fight

 

Hope will find a way

Find a way to carry on

To taste and see what HE has won

Send igniting into the night within the Light

 

Love will find a way

Find a way to overcome

To embrace and receive the SON

When delighting desires become set aright

 

Grace will find a way

Find a way to soar above

Through every storm have sufficiency enough

Lend Mighty Right Hand uplift for HIS vision in sight

 

Mercy will find a way

Find a way through push and shove

Cover over, found beneath, until arise a diamond in the rough

Defend as High Priest if broken and contrite

 

Compassion will find a way

Find a way to lift others up

Fill to overflowing my empty cup

Again and again give what’s needed beyond the fright of any plight

 

Faith will find the truth

Find the truth that sets free

Set free in the SON indeed

Abide in HIM to grow

 

Hope will find the truth

Find the truth to hold and keep

Debts paid move forward always believe

Guide into the Light reflect to show

 

Love will find the truth

Find the truth to just be 

Let it enter in daily to receive

Subside the fears, until cast aside, for love to forever know

 

Grace will find the truth

Find the truth to speak

Fret not to take a stand against the enemy

Decide to be in HIS will with seed for the sower to sow

 

Mercy will find the truth

Find the truth to grieve

Get back up no longer deceived

Hide under shelter of HIS wings until an arrow in HIS bow

 

Compassion will find the truth

Find the truth for others reach

Forget not where you came from with their pain conceive

Arrive on the scene to resuscitate no matter the injury or how far they’ve fallen below

 

Faith will find the life

Find the life few will find, even so, choose to breathe

Leapt to discover what only HE can do with me

Tried as gold refined by fire seven times aglow

 

Hope will find the life

Find the life with desires come to fruition when unto HIM heed

Secrets of HIS Heavenly wisdom enter in to succeed

Ride on the heights to newly dream to where HE leads go

 

Love will find the life

Find the life to do the same sincerely

Kept in HIS grips equipped meek and holy

Wide, long, high, and deep is this love of Christ that overflows

 

Grace will find the life

Extending to reach any in need with HIS wings beneath

Regrets left behind press on for Heavenward’s prize to seek

Died to sin made alive in Christ to walk the straight and narrow

 

Mercy will find the life

Find the life I don’t deserve because HE heard my pleas

Outlet for others to come to know HIM from their chains be released

Beside HIM open to be who I’m meant to be pure as white snow

 

Compassion will find the life

Find the life to become compassion perceived to those in need

Interprets what to pray and then stretch out hand for healing to relieve

Confide in HIM here and now into eternity ever ready to understand however many tomorrows bestow

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Alone

I know.

Alone, I know.

I know alone.

I know Alone, alone.

Alone, I won’t forget.

Forget not alone.

Forget not Alone, alone.

Alone is what I felt.

Alone is what I thought.

Alone is what I believed.

Alone is what I received.

Alone is what I perceived.

Alone is what I conceived.

There is alone.

Then there is Alone, alone.

I know Alone, and realized I wasn’t the only one who knew alone.

Many are alone who know Alone or have come to know Alone.

Realizing you’re not the only one who knows Alone is somehow comforting when you’re alone.

I am not alone anymore, yet I find a friend with those who know Alone for Alone once was so close to me I didn’t know otherwise.

If you know Alone and need a friend, I accept you as one of my friends…  You’re no longer alone…  I will believe you…  I will believe in you…  I will receive you…  I will perceive how Alone has made you, changed you, hurt you, scared you…  I will conceive how Alone makes your worldview, your inner view, your suicidal view…

I am made somewhat of Alone, changed somehow by Alone, hurt deeply by Alone, and feared once with Alone…  However, I am not Alone…  I never was…  But I was in utmost darkness alone.  Alone tried to take me under and almost succeeded;

Alone came alongside me while I was alone and joined me with it… until all I felt was what Alone felt, what Alone thought, what Alone only knew…  I learned Alone’s secrets…  Alone was only bringing me down to the lowest it only feels, it only thinks, it only knows… Spiraling down into darkness more and more and more…  Alone feels darkness, thinks darkness, knows darkness to depths you never knew before…  Alone reveals darkness beyond all darkness… Hope is lost with Alone…  Hope disappears when alone with Alone…  Hope is beyond one’s reach when Alone takes you under unwillingly… Alone makes its home in you… until you can’t stand Alone being anymore alone…  Alone can make you lose your mind, lose your heart, lose your soul, lose your spirit, and alone with Alone can cause you to lose your life…

Alone doesn’t realize Faith comes to life in darkness…  And I knew of Faith…  I didn’t know Faith, like really know, yet it called for me to take a chance on, to take a hold of, to realize Faith was the only way to get out of this deep dark pit – ravaged, bombarded, pounded, emptied, fear laden with and by Alone… tormenting me alone from Alone…  Something had to give…

Have Faith or die alone… overtaken by Alone.

Faith began to build me up as a real possibility…  Faith started to turn my heart, soul, mind, and spirit to the Author of my Faith… the Healer and Restorer of my heart…. the Savior and Defender of my soul… the Perfecter and Renewer of my mind… the Redeemer and Uplifter of my spirit…

Faith reunited me with Hope…  Faith made me realize Hope was not lost…  Hope had not disappeared…  Hope was surely within reach again…

Faith and Hope can sometimes be overshadowed by Alone, but can never be wiped out by Alone…  Alone tries to hide this reality…  Faith and Hope are of the LIGHT that Alone in the darkness hates to be seen…  Alone will mask it with others rejections of, turn those alone inward into their own darkness, or turn those alone around to not see even glimpses of Faith and Hope at one’s disposal that are found when called upon to operate and begin to shine brighter providing the way out of any darkened pit…

Faith and Hope together introduced me to LOVE…

1 Corinthians 13:4-8

Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. It does not dishonor others, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres.

Love never fails…

LOVE never fails, but I didn’t know that yet… LOVE keeps Faith and Hope together within and encompassed around me…  LOVE works from the depths of itself, the depths of Faith, and the depths of Hope to be forever united as One in me…  Alone couldn’t fully have me anymore…  After being introduced to Faith, Hope, and LOVE in the deepest of despair and despondency – I was forever found in new life…  changed with the appearance by the 3 that will always remain:  Faith, Hope, and LOVE…  and Alone may be in reach at any given time, yet I am always taken hold of by Faith, Hope, and LOVE…

I know LOVE so much more now that I believe, receive, perceive, conceive and am relieved by HIM that nothing can chase me away to the darkness alone with just Alone…  Yes, I may face being with Alone again, but I will always have Faith, Hope, and LOVE to accompany me from this time forth into forevermore…

So if you get to know me, you won’t be alone with Alone only…  I bring with me Faith, Hope, and LOVE so you get to know them too!!…  And I know that I know you’ll soon, at some point, embrace these 3 that will always remain for you as well…  Faith, Hope, and LOVE like to meet and greet, defeat darkness, release from fears, and bring you up from beneath the heavy weight of the world, sin, and brokenness you feel…  May you, like me, be established, rooted, and grounded in HIS LOVE for Faith, Hope, and LOVE to remain in you for all eternity…

What if you resist when Faith, Hope, and LOVE want to make an appearance to let you know Alone isn’t all there is to this life… Alone will remain with you alone…  That to me is not acceptable.  That to me is unthinkable.  That to me is unfathomable…  Being alone with Alone is not a way to live your life.

Having Faith, Hope, and LOVE always, with Alone sometimes, is much more foreseeable, doable, reachable, and conquerable…  Faith, Hope, and LOVE promise to get you who you’ve always desired to be, what you’ve always cared to be about, and beyond where you’ve ever dreamed of going if you’ll only welcome the 3 that will remain within given by JESUS Himself when you ask HIM in to hear you, help you, heal you, and honor HIS promises for you…  promises you can’t keep on your own, or make happen on your own, or even desire to have on your own.  JESUS will be to you who HE is and so much more… beyond what you can think, ask, or imagine…  So these 3 remain…  Faith, Hope, and LOVE…  And the greatest of these is LOVE…

What is so incredible is that asking JESUS to forgive you and to come into your heart is that with Faith, Hope, and LOVE you’ll know Forgiveness (GOD’s forgiveness;  empowered to forgive yourself and others even), Grace (ability to handle life’s stresses better), Mercy (received as needed when you mess up along your healing journey), and Compassion (ability to care about and be there for others in need).  GOD will also give you as a deposit (a guarantee of your inheritance to be received into Heaven) the HOLY Spirit as a gift to be your wonderful counselor never leaving you on your own to deal with life anymore on your own.  You will begin to grow with the fruit of the Spirit to know as well:  Love, Joy, Peace, Patience, Kindness, Goodness, Faithfulness, Gentleness, and Self-control…

With all these new “friends” inside you growing you and building you up, you’ll have more and more peace of mind, peace in your heart, restful peace for your soul, peace in your spirit, and peace that surpasses all understanding in your life…

JESUS, furthermore, promises HE will never leave you nor forsake you…  JESUS says no one can snatch you out of HIS hand and no one can snatch you out of GOD the FATHER’s hand…  This is all just a glimpse of HIS innumerable promises HE can keep and hold out just for you to take a hold of into your new found life…  Like me, you won’t be alone anymore with Alone…

Here’s a recap:

I am no longer alone… Now that I’m found in JESUS…

You don’t have to be either…

I still know Alone, but not apart from JESUS and all HIS “friends” working deeper within me…

Could you use some new companions along your journey?!…

GOD the FATHER in and through HIS SON JESUS gives them freely if you listen to and accept JESUS as Savior and LORD in your life…  What you’ll gain with surrender is by far the greatest treasure you will ever find in a lifetime…

JESUS never leaves nor forsakes you…

Holy Spirit is a deposit guaranteeing your residence will be Heaven…

You will grow in the fruits of the Spirit: Love, Joy, Peace, Patience, Kindness, Goodness, Faithfulness, Gentleness, and Self-control…

Love always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres.

LOVE never fails…

Faith, Hope, and LOVE remain…

And the greatest of these is LOVE…

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Sneak peek critique interpret

Peak interest in HIS Mystique infinity;  accept accrue identity

Friends of faith (pre-requisite) didn’t give up and quit

Pleas rise from your infirmity

Let down as a paralytic

HE speaks inside the Word spoken a remedy

Your sins HE forgives quick

Release -pick up your mat and walk in HIS affinity

 

Sneak peek critique desperate

Peak interest in HIS Mystique willingly;  accept true identity

You’re your own worst critic

Knees bend broken and contrite what pleases HIM to see

Agree to receive your get out of jail free ticket

East to West free from Your sins cast beneath to bottom of the sea

HE breaks your chains to forgive to forget it 

Lease new life as tears fall in salinity

HE stands at the door to unlock it

Keys for a hope and a future in eternity 

Not just the present of whats left in your pocket

Flees the fear within into HIS perfect love intimately

 

Sneak peek critique interpret

Peak interest in HIS Mystique imminently;  accept new identity

Are you HIS own worst cynic

Esteem HIM not unclearly, may be afraid and weary, maybe blame and leery, may be contrary and angry merely

Don’t believe, understand, or agree because of all the hypocrites

Deed to your life won’t you give over to your deepest need for a Savior who bleeds love sincerely

Faith sought as HE dies for you on a cross like a criminal mimic, yet innocent grit and bear it to remit

Lead to the tomb after buried 3 days became empty

Hope caught up for HE is victorious over death arise to win it

Heed HIS voice to come follow the Way, the Truth, and the Life in synchronicity

Love brought about when HE gave HIS very life in pursuit of your mind, heart, soul, and spirit

Believe in HIS Name, conceive that your soul is HIS treasure, perceive that HE paid the price for it if you just receive

HE weaves faith, hope, and love to rescue, restore, and redeem every second and every minute

Renew with your mind to know HIS will complete

See with your heart to delight in HIM for desires to be relit

Breathe with your soul to dream a new dream

Soar by HIS Spirit (a deposit within for Heaven guarantee) with vision and purpose pure and legit

See with and walk by faith in the Trinity

True Identity

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Spiritual in the Center

 

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I admit I lost my way

A long time before

I walked away

There was nothing more

A youth to the world did sway

Nothing more to live for

My whole life bent toward decay

Within alone losing a war

Without HIM falling astray

With all of me closing doors

Saying my goodbye that day

No longer a prayer towards

Downward spiral hides sun’s rays

Carried by waves far from shore

Darkness overtakes where demons play

Losing hold of reality to ignore

Thoughts in mind collide into a daze

No longer eating much in store

Thoughts in mind attack into a haze

Depression has reached the core

Mental illness enters a new phase

Suicidal encompasses every pore

No longer can make it out of the maze

A call for help is made too late implore

Dark night of the soul crippling tase

Leave to attempt suicide ending the uproar

A compromised life with past of guilt and shame in fear at did gaze

 

I recommit to find HIS way

Even though worse off than before

I cry out from far away

There in the distance I want HIM more

A youth Heavenward don’t want to sway

Faith, wavering, believe more to live for

My whole life vent for HIM to save from decay

Within alone, only for HIM invite to fight my war

Without others to help, HE seeks this lost sheep astray

With all of me knocking for HIM to open my heart’s door

Reunion to come inside being there for me every day

Weaker, but stronger in prayer towards

Lifting me up from the pit to see again sun’s rays

Walks on water rescuing from drowning leading me to shore

Darkness is Light to HIM and the demons will flee from play

Winning HE holds my reality and doesn’t ignore

Renewing my mind to get out of a daze

Eating meals again to regain strength in store

Fight the good fight thinking on truth to see through the haze

Depression lifting for HE has reached into my core

With mental illness, HE is strong entering into redemptions phase

Desiring to live right anew with grace, mercy, and compassion releasing from every pore

Now stronger HE leads me into the land of the living out of the maze

A call on HIS name saves me and wasn’t too late for HIM when I’d implore

HE is ever ready and willing to enter the dark night of the soul healing from what did tase

Retrieved me after my attempt from suicide ending the uproar

A new life for a hope and a future free of guilt and shame without fear into HIS eyes will gaze

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Once walked along without a care

Once ran around real fast ready a dare

Once slept dreaming of another day… now rare

 

Then walked broken hearted

When confidence in departed

Been wishing to go back where it started

 

Fell into depression’s futile trance ridden of hope’s stride no longer find; fail to my health reapply deeply shy with no one to whom confide ever more and more withdrawn;  needed to humbly ask the ONE who will reveal an answer

Fell into a victim’s neutral stance hidden to cope inside though conjure denied; curtail my stealth reside -confined weeping; try to come back alive tether more and more foregone;  needed to humbly seek the ONE for a remedy from the cancer

Fell into lowest esteem and no youthful dance; forbidden to mope resigned so maunder unkind rail against myself pry keeping pride to bide my time however more and more wrong;  needed to humbly knock to be open to the ONE who rescues from disaster

 

Sink in deepest pit, quick trip, land unable to see the light in darkest of night

Sink in steepest sin, in quicksand, unstable reprieve with fright in starkness of plight

Sink in bleakness dim, a quick whim unplanned; disable to leave life pinned regardless of suicide

 

All I could do to look up heavenward and call on HIS name one day to be redeemed steering where I’ll mend; restore with new faith in Maker within… securely toward for others to newly see

All I could do to hold on to be reassured until wall of shame pervade to be free not fearing the end; implore with new hope anchor within… purely to mentor others truly in need

All I could do to keep up and believe occurred until relit aflame persuade to be devotee nearing an open door continuing on with love clangor within… sincerely to award others duly in deed

 

Reminder of the mud and mire where I would wallow solo

Turn back to HIM in repentance from being shallow to now follow

Mercy, grace, and compassion filled the hollow after many a blow

 

Once again I walk along this time with HIS care and my cross to bear

Once again I run the race this time for HIM alone I’ll dare to share 

Once again I dream now while awake in each new day unto HIM not so rare more aware

 

Found faith to go on as a searcher finding within freedom

Found hope to know of a future guiding in HIS Kingdom

Found love to grow from Whom will nurture abiding into a beacon lead ‘em

 

Faith, hope, and love is needed through every high and low

Faith, hope, and love remain to forever show

The greatest of these is love to eternally overflow

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Dreams birthed yesteryear

Still hold dear

Dreams may come true

Because they include You

Dreams keep future alive

May be why I survived

Dreams anew arrive

Guide inner drive

Dreams expand purpose

Vision seen of service

Dreams bigger reach out

Greater love teach about

Dreams beyond imagination

Go forward toward elation

Dreams forged in isolation

Deep within during tribulation

Dreams You will do

Use me in at least a few working through

Dreams of past to present to future connect

All because You take broken pieces to resurrect

Dreams according to Your will select

For those most in need You direct

Dreams of Salvation You will redeem

For anyone’s life who accepts Your dream

Dreams of turning lives around

Ask and you receive that you may abound

Dreams of rescue that will astound

Seek and by HIM you will be found

Dreams of relationship with GOD renown

JESUS knocks with gentle sound

Dreams you will open your heart’s door

Let HIM in and HIS love impart to adore

Dreams to follow HIM upon the waves at sea

Become the person you always wanted to be

Dreams to follow HIM ashore where He will restore

Become the person you always hoped for 

Dreams to follow HIM all the more

Become the person HE won’t ignore

Dreams to remember HIM on the cross 

You who HE came to die for no longer lost

Dreams do come true in JESUS

All you have to do is believe and trust

Dreams you did not know exist

HE gives what’s missed 

Dreams inspired by GOD persists

HE looks for vessels willing to enlist

Somehow will

Feel my way

Until I find YOU

 

Press on still

Heal I pray

Will You bind up their wounds

 

Somehow fill

Appeal one day

Thrill to shine into

 

All those hurting ill

Real hope turns away dismay

Will faith prevail soon

 

Somehow fulfill

Kneel, walk, obey

Skill of love never to fail within HIM; Triune

 

Somehow….Come now…Some way…Some day…

 

Will happen in Your timing

Faith not so blinding

Hope and a future aligning

Pure true Love finding

For new life unwinding

Mercy and compassion reminding

Until LIGHT cascades over the darkness eternally shining

 

Yet we live on…

until the devil meets his match that GOD our FATHER strikes its end… set aflame, far from us expulsion disbanded -no longer with fiery darts targeting at our hearts aim

our faith he can’t catch; crush his head then fallen into lake of fire send… let tame his evil compulsion stranded -no longer with tiring accusations marketing at our minds blame

Because we live on and on…

set free he can’t snatch; secure in the Savior’s care and the FATHER’s strongest hands tend… debt/shame gone as peace and grace rush in granted -no longer with firing arrows darkening to our souls maim

beyond the grave deep within is Heaven attached; await a future hope prepared above where we fully mend… met mercy anew every morning propulsion open handed -made stronger desiring eternity harkening to our spirits claim

So we will live on and on and on…

 

 

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Diversity of life contain the ocean

Waves of all heights from undercurrent maintain the motion

Rise and fall of tides attain erosion

Hurricanes no longer bides nor refrains commotion

 

Complexity of life strain until undone

Days and nights apparent remain the moon, stars, and sun

Rise and fall likewise, that hides within, is our emotions

Drains what once was stronger in self demotion

 

Perversity of life in vain fixation

Strays far with plight inherent feign affection

Rise and fall caused by lies, greed, and lust demoralize (if not repent to abstain) soon will demolish a nation

Wanes experiences of freedom that may be gone; return to GOD and regain a secure and firm foundation

 

Certainty of life pain implosion

Ways upright adherent; ingrain to press on to hear well done good and faithful servant in this race run and all evil shun

Rise and fall among that guides breath in our lungs in the Son as one

Campaigns to live is Christ and die is gain the inspiration of an eternal notion

 

Adversity in life can train for compassion’s promotion

Saves with HIS blood recurrent covering over guilt stains in HIS Light now to sustain devotion

Rise and fall yet HE reigns above over sin and death won

Remains faith, hope, and love found below that will still overcome

 

As I rise and fall, I continue onward in hope forgiven seventy x seven

As I rise and fall, I grip the 3 chord strand of rope to lift me out of the pit risen again and again

As I rise and fall, I hold Your hand of help to cope on a mission of love driven

As I rise and fall, I know my final destination and Your eternal promise is that You raise me up to Heaven

 

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Here for a reason

Why I carry on so

For a season

How long I don’t know

 

Listen to reminder

Never alone in the throes

Be kinder along the way as a pathfinder

Mercy to give others among their woes

 

Meant to remember

Compassion to show

Ignite the ember

Eager to grow

 

Be responsible

Despite the toll of pains blow

Overcome every obstacle

He died to give you new life for HIS renown owe

 

Goal to reconcile

Uplift the low

Reach out to those in denial

Faith seeds to sow

 

Make recompense

With love overflow

Stand in defense

Voice on behalf of the orphans, the weak, and the poor bestow

 

Life purpose reconsider

Envision where to go

For the little children never hinder unto HIS arms open wide come hither

Justice to prevail against all evil derail until fears overthrow

 

Choose to rescue

Those fallen below

Leave the many for the few

Willing to walk through the valley of death’s shadow

 

Faith, hope, and love remain

To refill, refresh, replenish, and restore the hollow

Greatest of these is love to sustain

Receive from Heaven’s open window until reach it’s door open to enter the afterglow

 

 

 

 

 

Tired

Overly tired

Spread thin

yolk is easy confirmation light -go to rend the Heavens behold passion live in

Wired

Sleeplessly wired

Head spin

Invoke inspiration ignite -go to depend on HIM for soul satisfaction beyond what I imagine

Listen

Musically listen

Fed within

Spoke in affirmation from above at night -go to tend unfold thirsty ration given

Discipline

Mostly discipline

Led in

Soak in admiration with love upright -go to mend whole in mercy and compassion driven

Praying

Rally praying

fled open

Broken door revelation contrite -go in to defend those abandoned/imprisoned

Obeying

Steadfastly obeying

Tread begin

Awoken toward impassioned Light -go forth to befriend young and old uphold; then as fashioned rest again