Crisis

Into a crisis

Gone to psychosis

What’s the prognosis

In the event -should I say? prevent -too late? circumvent -is there a way?

Doesn’t look good

If appearances could

Speak louder would

YOU give up on me to reject? YOU remain silent to forget? YOU leave up to fate to neglect?

Where only death is imminent

In the natural

Low stature recall

Mind fracture appall

I gave up to waste away

I gave up on myself as if to erase

Yet remembered to embrace the Way, the Truth, and the Life with an about face

Mustard seed faith

One chance relate

Would HE resuscitate?

All I am dependent without support of family

All I do is fret about the enemy

All I can manage is to wait on YOU to relent from sending calamity

Enter the supernatural

Heard my call

Uplifts after fall

HE begins a rescue mission despite my regret in a dream state

Somehow enters the picture beyond too late

Begins to guide me on righteous paths that are straight

What future awaits

Where nurture permeates

A searcher ruminates

About HIS Savior until HIS love exonerates after repentance to now emulate

A follower resonates in the care of the Shepherd who directs my steps and orders my life anew into faith, hope, and love HE orchestrates

A servant concentrates on obeying the KING of kings and LORD of lords whose grace, mercy, and compassion increasingly motivates this new life that equates to forgiveness, restoration, and redemption in Christ who emanates

Clouds

There’s a black cloud arising

Over the horizon impending

Doom

There’s a black cloud closer

Gathers stronger blocking

Moon

There’s a black cloud above

Threatens fear succumbing 

Swoon

There’s a black cloud encompassing

Overtaken by darkness blinding

Tomb

There’s a black cloud reminding

Of tornadic mind in thunder and lightning

Strewn 

There’s a still small voice spoken elevating

That stills the storm within making

Room

There’s peace once again releasing

For faith, hope, and love remaining

Hewn

There’s a rainbow proved faithful in the forefront

Where clouds have moved beyond the storm front

Boon

There’s a day HE’s coming on the clouds again

A trumpet blare humming clear and loud to rend

Attuned

Catch wind

Catch fire

Catch the passion

Of all HE desires

Before being caught up in the clouds to meet HIM in the air…

Soon

Continuing to Breathe

Could have been me

Easily

No longer breathe

A tragedy

That fateful day

After astray

Suicide attempt betray

Fallen away?

 

Come up for air

Aware of sun’s glare

Empty

Deaths door no more dare

Stare with fear beyond repair

Eerily 

Get up and walk again

What happened

Accursed me 

Lost and afraid wide open

Cost only delayed beside broken

Eternally?

 

Many years fought fear aplenty

Desperately

Remain to breathe

A fallacy?

3 times denied enter confined in hospital of psychiatry

Repeated malady

Shown again and again and again mercy

Restored faithfully

 

Walk by faith this 4th time trusting in continuing

Beyond my dignity

Lay down my life to fully losing it resurfacing

Found life resurrecting

Keep the faith in HIS truth liberating

Beyond understanding

Await the day set free releasing

Love overcomes fear ceasing

 

Now help with burdens to bear

For all the suicidal and mentally ill care

Resiliency

Persevere to share

That faith, hope, and love will always be there

As a remedy

Awaited on HIM for new strength again

In HIS time the mind, heart, soul, and spirit mend

Redeeming

Words inspired by HIS life given

Driven by HIS love with purpose and vision

Into eternity…

There Will Be…

There will be setbacks

Not meant to remain in remorse

Just stay the course

 

There will be paybacks

Not meant for you to give

Let go and continue on to live

 

There will be drawbacks

When fear seems to win again

Choose faith to overcome often

 

There will be step backs

Regroup to move forward after rest

Push through until pass the test

 

There will be flashbacks

Panic attacks that take over at times to rewind inferiority

Held back until trust in HIM reminds to find security

 

There will be comebacks

Better than luck will wait to be renewed

After getting stuck will find breakthrough

 

There will be broken dreams

Fix your eyes and continue to believe

One day in delighting you may receive

 

There will be broken hearts

For compassion to grow within

And then mend again arisen

 

There will be wounded souls

That need to be restored however severe

Touch of healing enters their core to reward when persevere

 

There will be wounded spirits

That look for an open door

Release of healing upon wings to soar

 

There will be suicidal thoughts

Surprised at how far you’ve fallen down

Pulled from the waters so as not to drown

 

There will be depression fought

Keep the light lit even if moments flickering slight

Weep in the night until new dawn awaken aright

 

There will be death soon enough

Find faith, hope, and love that remain

Store up treasure in Heaven where your heart will maintain

 

There will be life anew beyond what’s rough

Turn away from plans to end it all refrain

Find grace, mercy, and peace that will sustain

Had I Not Known

Where Would I Be?  Had I Not Known…

Now I have faith, hope, and love to be shown…

And the WORD of HIS Way, Truth, and Life as seeds to be sown…

To walk the straight and narrow until Heaven’s my home…

 

Had to lose myself so weak

To find out who I’m meant to be in HIM set free

 

Had to fall into insanity

To regain a sound mind who has HIS peace opposite of vanity

 

Had to die to selfishness then to self brevity

To arise again who knows HIS reality

 

Had to wander on my own

To learn by faith going HIS Way I’m not alone

 

Had to cast my cares and anxieties upon HIM ongoing interrupt

To endure and persevere with hope for HIS grace, mercy, and compassion showing up

 

Had to seek HIM in the darkness with so much doubt

To trust in HIM as the Light who leads the way out

 

Had to face the giant of fear

To receive HIS love when near until fear would disappear

 

Have to share my testimony no longer lost in sin and lonely

To make JESUS known my destiny -made stronger in HIM only

From Utter Darkness into YOUR Light

Why am I inspired late at night

Why not when the sun is bright

I guess the darkness is what you saved me from

I profess YOUR Light given is what has brought my freedom

It’s YOUR blood poured out that has bought my life back from the dead

It’s YOUR Word of life that has taught me to renew my mind to offset dread

It’s YOUR Spirit that has caught my undivided attention to walk on ahead

It’s YOUR Presence that has sought my soul deserving punishment to restore instead

It’s YOUR touch that has given my life vision and purpose to be mission led

It’s YOUR love that has chased away the fear and how now life is lived and interpreted

Freedom

Freedom comes within when forgiven of our sin

Freedom continues on when fear and doubt are cast out by Love given

Freedom commemorates when restates purpose with greater vision

Freedom captivates when delights in the LORD become ones desires driven

Freedom can’t wait to walk the straight and narrow with greater faith, hope, and love to live in

Freedom coordinates with grace, mercy, and compassion to bring healing within setting captives free from prison

Freedom cries out to listen to wisdom to embrace the Great Commission with decision to serve on mission for a pure religion to reach the widow and orphan in pure devotion forward go on until Heaven reach above risen…

At My Worst~To Better than I was at First

Fallen deep pit

Hidden pitch black

Walled in steep outwit

Forbidden niche lack

All alone sit

Sudden despair attack

On my own unfit

Backslidden rebellion retract

Mood swings low until hollow only the negativity transmit

Suicidal thoughts screams overthrow into mind hack

Guilt and shame drown with an attempt as reality hit

Stunned in shock with voice stolen by enemy flak

Fear overwhelmed almost overtaken by demons as I waited in transit

Overcome was my soul out of whack

Hell made real stuck between good vs. evil with personality split

 

Sullen weep uplift

Freedom bring back

Called within;  keep lit

Seventy x seven forgiven;  does it make up the slack

Failure of wrongs confess to HIM admit

Open door of hope impact

A 3 chord strand of rope equipped

Burden of apprehension weigh upon unpack

Light of love shone won’t quit

Broken and contrite as a matter of fact

Healing the rift between my heart, soul, and spirit

Kingdom care steer on track

Given a sound mind again as I renew it

Heaven’s destination remind where treasures stack with compassions destiny mine to be exact

Faith to live on now the pre-requisite