Archive for the ‘memories’ Category

I remember memories that replay yesterday and wonder why

I remember memories that sway back and forth today and sigh

I remember memories that delay like deja vu arrayed in the future reapplied

I remember memories of mistakes and failures made causing pain I’d rather hide

I remember memories held at bay I’d rather not say went awry

I remember memories once afraid no longer make me prey in the night

I remember memories laid bare so much stronger that I pray won’t be how I die

I remember memories of hell’s visit down the broadway with sin’s choice for entrance prefaced I’d preferably decide to contrive and be deprived

I remember memories like shade in the hottest summer to evade under a tree think twice about while I reside with the littlest faith arise

I remember memories where I strayed until found by the ONE I betrayed now unto will abide with hope to enter HIS arms in Heaven arrive

I remember memories of fear weighed heavily upon this casualty of war that love conveyed in order for it to disappear and heal me inside

I remember memories that slay my pride to display the humility I now allow to guide

I remember memories that give way to HIS grace now to follow as I soar above the storm on the heights by HIS Spirit not by might

I remember memories that trade my punishment with HIS mercy instead that covers me always new every morning to find supplied as I remain contrite

I remember memories that pervade of HIS compassion embraced that erased the oppression and loneliness while it trained me to comfort others with a depth of understanding comprised

I remember memories where HIS truth sustained and prayers uplifted with thanks maintained a peace that surpassed all understanding guarding my heart and mind in JESUS Christ

I remember memories spent alone with HIM that I can now say will remain as I’ve been taught HIS Word to obey where I’ve been tried as gold refined, where I’ve been aligned to HIS will defined, and where I’ve dined with HIM to always remind me I’m HIS and HE is mine for all time…

At the edge of death

Brought back again to new life breath

Mercy, grace, compassion true to…

Find breakthroughs rest

 

A candle once aflame

Strongest storm came

My heart makes room when winds grew…

Blew out zest

 

Take tragedy’s lonely memory

Make triumph’s only remedy

For what you’d approve…

Love others quest

 

Keep faith, hope, and love alive

Reaching out to save above strive

Eternal memories of you survive into…

Remembering what’s best

 

Those passed on not in vain will sustain

Dream to see again remain beyond the pain

Nothings impossible for GOD to do…

Delight desires request

 

I understand what can too soon end

I’ve planned to hold out my hand until you mend

Here for you, you, and you…

Who are oppressed

 

So much in you many can relate to in the fight

Overflow mission’s purpose into your mom equate proves to reignite

The torch envision in service to carry on her love for you through it all pursue into…

Hurting lives reinvest

Mistakes that I had made

Low self-esteem, empty, ashamed

No identity yet, solo, afraid

High school, one date came, I’m to blame

Still recognize her face and remember her name

Monday came; she stood there waiting, locked gaze in suspended time, then walked away because I couldn’t respond as if in a daze

I pray she knows HIS love all her days…

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Mistakes I dare to share

Open up not sure she’d even care

Return the favor listening, revealing all unaware

College, first relationship, burdens to bear

Found solace for a short time so rare

She had to leave across the sea and I let go too scared

I pray she finds HIM suddenly out of no where

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Mistakes I regret

Awkward, unsure, how to interpret

Searching for identity unkept

College, second relationship, just met

A whirlwind transpires;  I easily make her upset

She gave it one last chance;  I hurt her heart and can’t forget

I pray she experiences HIS joy each day on reset

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Mistakes of getting too close without commitment

Except our faith in GOD, we’d abstain from being intimate

Taking a chance after my suicide attempt and mental illness onset

Singles group in church, third relationship, her a divorcee with a daughter, could we reinvent

GOD would make it clear we weren’t meant to be in marriage represent

She was saddened, but moved on to start her own family circumvent

I pray she always has HIS encouragement and a love for HIM that’s fervent

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Through all my mistakes I came to find HIM anew

My refocus in relationship with HIM intertwined with her and grew

Drawn together as we served HIS children in love’s purpose pure and true

Times well spent with each other set in motion HIS will to pursue

It is evident we were meant to be a family within HIS faith, hope, and love through and through

She has fought to win battles with the enemy as revealed by scars and wounds

She has fought to win battles for me in the midst of my darkest hours now removed

She has fought to win battles for herself of declined health faithful to be there for our children proved

I pray she feels HIS love through me continually, reveals HIS love through our children repeatedly, conceals within HIS love fully to share assuredly, and kneels with me in awe of what the LORD has done mercifully in Heaven one day and then walk together as best friends for all eternity…

Life seems to have passed you by

Only good memories faded

Even ones that left you elated

Why the bad memories here today yet outdated

Falling from mind to heart deflated 

Never leaving you alone; leaves you jaded

 

Life still seems to have cast truth aside

Only good dreams abated

Even ones that left you confiscated

Why the bad dreams today frustrated

Falling from heart to soul agitated

Never leaving you alone; leaves you aggravated

 

Life will still seem to have miscast truth to be denied

Only good dreams desecrated

Even ones that left you devastated 

Why the bad dreams today detonated

Falling from soul to spirit inundated

Never leaving you alone; leaves you feeling separated

 

Life seems to have amassed lies to you that misguide

Only good memories now antiquated

Even ones that left you dissipated

Why not the bad memories today be traded

Forgiveness falling from mind to heart alleviated

Never leaving you alone;  leaves you consecrated

 

Life still seems to have outlast the lies with truth now abide

Only good dreams captivated

Even ones that left you become reactivated

Why the bad dreams today can be extricated

Mercy falling from heart to soul cascaded 

Never leaving you alone; leaves you rehydrated

 

Life will still have amassed truth apply if in HIM you delight

Only good dreams awaited to come true soon enough fabricated and integrated

Even ones that left you now are advocated just belated 

Why the bad dreams yesterday can be vacated and evaded

Grace falling from soul to spirit liberated and motivated

Never leaving you alone; leaves you with faith, hope, and love affiliated and consummated