If you're overwhelmed by suicidal thoughts
or have a plan for suicide, it is ok to
get help from a mental health professional
for meds to help support you
as well as counseling as you look to be hopeful again
and better manage your precious life
(especially if you've been abused or experienced trauma in any way)...
You're worthwhile and valuable...
I care about you!!... Reach out to me anytime...
I want you to be an overcomer and a fighter...
L.ive O.n V.ictorious E.ndeavor
Choose L.O.V.E.;
L.ift-up I.nspirational F.uture E.ndure
Choose L.I.F.E.
To shareone’sdeepest or mostintimateemotions,thoughts, or secrets,especially in a profuse or suddenmanner.
expressyourdeepestfeelings or thoughts in a fullandunrestrainedway.
Our Need
With being human, we all need an outlet to release our thoughts and emotions in a constructive manner that will ultimately benefit us with sharing such things with someone rather than keeping it all within – “bottled up” per say.
A bad attitude toward life may be due to holding within bitterness toward a person who has wronged us or toward difficult life event/s without ever dealing with the thoughts and emotions that accompany it.
Depression personally may be due to holding within anger toward self, anger and grief about missed opportunities, or anger and grief about difficult life circumstances (including loss of a loved one) that have happened over time.
Ways of Expression for Sweet Release
My favorite way to pour out my heart is through writing poetry and sharing my hurts, disappointments, difficulties, and sadness with GOD HIMSELF in learning to trust HIM to use hardships, trials, and tribulations to build within me faith and strong character. I allow HIM to mold me into a better person through it all.
If I kept everything in without talking about it and dealing with it, I would go back into deep depression that I experienced as a youth. I once kept everything in. I didn’t talk. I was a loner for the most part, with only a few friends. All my thoughts and emotions were locked away. What I experienced because of this was anger inside, anger at life, mistrust of people, and really being a hateful person. It was a detriment to me personally. What if I had someone to talk to about what I dealt with instead of going it alone. I didn’t have a relationship with GOD, at the time, who would have listened to me and helped me had I known I could turn to HIM for HIS care and support. Life is difficult enough without having to also deal with unresolved and negative thoughts and emotions weighing heavily on the mind, heart, soul, and spirit.
A river needs to have an outlet to move along in forward motion as rains fill it to overflowing. A river whose outlet is the ocean finds release from the pressure that otherwise builds up as in the case if a dam was built to contain it.
Our minds need an outlet for our thoughts, our hearts need to have an outlet for our emotions to move along forward in this life, our souls need to have an outlet to share hopes and dreams, and our spirit needs an outlet to connect to JESUS and our future in eternity…
If we don’t have an outlet, then negativity backs up, builds up pressure, causes one to erupt at some point with damaging consequences that may include suicidal thoughts and/or suicide attempts as an extreme measure seemingly forced into. It simply becomes too much to handle and the stress is now too overwhelming.
Who To Turn To
If you have a close friend to talk to about anything and everything, consider yourself blessed to have that special someone in your life. Not everyone has that.
Going to a counselor to help sort through life’s baggage that may include depression, mental illness, suicidal ideation, abuse, and/or trauma can bring breakthroughs in your life as you face these giants head on and learn to overcome and heal from the hurts you’ve experienced. It takes time, sometimes a very long time to see results.
I have my wife who is my helpmate for sure and can listen to a certain extent. Yet, I don’t have that one guy in my life that I can talk with, be accountable to, and share my burdens I experience through life.
If you’re like me and need someone other than your spouse or a counselor, then GOD is the relationship you are to establish that can change everything in a positive direction…
For to us a child is born, to us a son is given, and the government will be on his shoulders. And he will be called Wonderful Counselor, Mighty God, Everlasting Father, Prince of Peace. Isaiah 9:6
JESUS is the Wonderful Counselor who fills that deep seated need for support and encouragement we all need…
JESUS is Mighty GOD who fills the role of Protector and a Defense against our enemies…
JESUS is Everlasting FATHER who fills the role giving us the love and provision we need…
JESUS is Prince of Peace who fills the role of giving HIS peace within us to deal with anything that comes our way…
Pour Out Your Heart to GOD
Pouring out your heart to GOD is the single most beneficial thing you can do in your life. He listens and understands. JESUS, when HE came to earth as one of us (human too), experienced every type of temptation, stress, emotions, and thoughts yet was without sin. After HE died on the cross to satisfy GOD’s wrath, overcome death, deal with our enemies including satan, and to deal with and forgive our sin, HE became our High Priest who understands our weaknesses, daily bears our burdens, and prays for us. HE knows and understands us more than anyone else can.
Pouring out your heart to GOD = extreme closeness to the heart of GOD
David, a shepherd boy, who later became the king of GOD’s people is known as a man after GOD’s own heart. Do you know why he was a man after GOD’s own heart. David turned to GOD whenever he was dealing with life’s ups and downs and poured out his heart to HIM. He wasn’t perfect and sinned in terrible ways. So why then was he still a man after GOD’s own heart. He made many mistakes, yet he turned to GOD quickly and asked for forgiveness and desired the relationship to be restored. When good happened in his life, he turned to GOD and gave HIM thanks. David is the author of many of the Psalms in the Bible. If you want examples of pouring out your heart to GOD, you can read through the Psalms which are heartfelt pouring out of emotions and thoughts that were burdensome to bear and deeply troubling to heartfelt pouring out of emotions and thoughts expressing gratitude.
I highly recommend getting a spiral notebook or other journal and begin the process of pouring out your heart of all its emotions and thoughts, hopes and dreams, failures and successes, and deepest needs expressed to GOD and you will be radically changed for the better by doing so… Share your thoughts with HIM, cast your cares and anxieties onto HIM from your heart, bare your soul to HIM, and send up flares from your spirit unto HIM… As you do so over time, things will begin to transform within you through development of your seeking relationship with your Creator who knows all things, knows you, knows what you need and yet wants you to just talk to HIM…
Pouring out your heart to GOD is a way of delighting in HIM… There is a wonderful promise to receive when we do this…
Delight yourself in the LORD; And He will give you the desires of your heart. Psalm 37:4
As I have delighted in the LORD, HE has given me some desires of my heart already:
* a wife
* children
* inspiration to write (mostly poetry)
* deliverance from fears and anxieties and being suicidal
* help and support with my mental illness (more of a sound mind and peace within)
* an orphan ministry
* ability to serve with children as one of my passions
* a heart of compassion with ability to show mercy with cheerfulness and to encourage others
* desire to be a pastor
Psalm 62:5-8
5 Yes, my soul, find rest in God; my hope comes from him. 6 Truly he is my rock and my salvation; he is my fortress, I will not be shaken. 7 My salvation and my honor depend on God[a]; he is my mighty rock, my refuge. 8 Trust in him at all times, you people; pour out your hearts to him, for God is our refuge.
This is for sure -I know Who helps us through our sorrows…
We aren’t promised tomorrow at any time
In fact
There’s no going back.Or can we?Pack? Step into a time machine hijack?
No, odds are stacked against us and left us out of whack -but we can take time to remember, reminisce, revisit again whereas only HE can turn back the hands of time to redeem…
Though older
There is youth regret with desire to start over
We can start over and with time become much wiser
There’s no getting younger age wise to retract
There is backtrack to ask for forgiveness white as snow to be exact
Time stands still
Love can do that;become young at heart to keep intact facing the facts head on -make a comeback
However brief and for however long is its lifelong impact…
There’s still time
For love to carry on
Choose to make a difference before its gone
Time is of the essence
Find love in HIS Presence
Be filled up with overflowing cup upon a mountain top experience
Time is a healer;heals all wounds
Come back down into the valley of the shadow
To help our fellow brother or sister below… Death may come fast, all of a sudden, and everybody know or occur solo so slow -either way let love show…
Time flies when you’re having fun
So time dies when you’re not -no, it’s for faith inside to grow… hope inside to know… love inside reaching out to bestow…
Faith, hope, and love remains as HE alone sustains wherever we are and wherever we go…
Time changes everything
We are changed, it’s true, as we walk along
Changed by the sadness and bitterness or changed to maturity ongoing with each new dawn…
Running out of time
Make moments count even so
An eternal fount awaits beyond the rainbow
At times, let go of time constraints
Enjoy the still and quiet silence or choose opposite of any violence toward others or yourself; begin a new endeavor
A goal may be to get through whatever the weather; give up never, yet ready for forever…
Time to come in
Come in from the cold -no longer alone;come bold to the throne of grace to obtain grace and mercy in times of need until found a home; come hold on until the disaster passes over -out of the war zone
Rest your weary soul in HIM; bought at a price not your own…
Time is now
Act in such a way to bring honor, glory, and praise to our Creator
Best to do so sooner, better late than never, or miss out all together later
Time to go
On a trip of adventure ready for departure
Make lasting memories to capture ever ready to really leave this earth with the rapture
It’s time
Time to know the Way, the Truth, and the Life
So that your time eternally is spent in Heaven beyond internal sin, death’s sentence, pain and sickness, screaming solo, and negative strife
This time…
I live not for myself alone
I’m here for who I love;making HIM known…
Ecclesiastes 3:1-8
A Time for Everything
3 There is a time for everything, and a season for every activity under the heavens:
2 a time to be born and a time to die, a time to plant and a time to uproot, 3 a time to kill and a time to heal, a time to tear down and a time to build, 4 a time to weep and a time to laugh, a time to mourn and a time to dance, 5 a time to scatter stones and a time to gather them, a time to embrace and a time to refrain from embracing, 6 a time to search and a time to give up, a time to keep and a time to throw away, 7 a time to tear and a time to mend, a time to be silent and a time to speak, 8 a time to love and a time to hate, a time for war and a time for peace.
Weaker than I’d ever been up to then I never did mention
You were one who took the time to talk so open
Soft and gentle words encouraged when spoken
To be heard in uncertainty and confusion
A life giving spirit breaking through the delusion
A small action that was given to bring about future rewarding investment in me
For new life to once again be a possibility
Nothing felt on the outside
Yet touched nevertheless inside
Your face of compassion intent on understanding with love to impart
It must come from the LORD welling up from the depths of your heart
Glad you were there
A few minutes to share
Like a lifetime aware
Release from burdens heavy to bear
You showed you care
Brought a spark to my heart for repair
Brought hope to my soul in despair
Brought light to confront the darkness dare
There to share your gift from the start with such a unique expression arrayed
Etched in my soul and spirit in gratitude receiving quite an everlasting impression made
You were doing your job maybe even going out of your way, an extra mile per se
As shifts would change, I’d wish you were the one who’d stay to continue hearing sweet words you’d say
For it was you who brought rays of light and hope to the day
Uplifting my countenance from a deep pit of depression that you somehow did overlay
Sun shine, birds singing, therapy session, you smiling for me to be brave as you went away
Meredith, a God send, approached out of my nowhere by sitting near me and broke through my brokenness. It was during my 1st hospitalization in a psych unit after my suicide attempt. She brought me hope that somehow gained entrance into my heart, soul, mind, and spirit. I was eternally made different because of the compassion she showed me. One visiting angel appearing for a few moments in time changed the outlook and course of my life toward a positive redirection… I would not see her again during my stay there. However, she did reappear where I later got a job working with abused and neglected children. She was working there as a counselor/social worker I believe. I don’t know if she remembered me from our brief encounter previously. She may never realize just how much her gift of compassion meant to me until Heaven… Never underestimate your power to make a positive difference in others lives by talking to them in their time of need with encouragement and listening ears…
