Come to ME

 

How are you?  Really!?…  I pray for you…  I’m here for you!!… Sincerely…

How am I thought of?  I wonder.  How am I seen?  Maybe real and genuine.  Maybe off base and peculiar.  How do I come across?  Maybe human and down to earth.  Maybe human and troubled.  Maybe human with a spiritual connection to GOD and Heaven…  Probably a little of each component that makes up my whole being with much left unexplored and unknown…

My preferred way of communication is poetry.  If you have any familiarity with my site, it is engulfed by poems.  Some are simple and to the point and you understand where I’m coming from.  Some are complicated and confusing and you don’t understand what I’m talking about.

The simple and to the point come from a heightened awareness of GOD, HIS love, and times of peaceful recollection, remembrance, and restoration of HIS work in my life…  A tranquil day in the sun…  The complicated and confusing come from a darkened depression turned to mental illness in processing the lonely, anxiety ridden, and fearfully prolonged moments of a life trying to manage everything after being suicidal and making an actual attempt. A chaotic storm in the middle of the darkest night.

Maybe I need to write more like this; acquainting with you in paragraph form, thought by thought sequence, conversation style, letting you in more so to know some of my soul, to know me as a fellow human living this life to overcome and be a fighter still pressing on no matter what comes my way; facing it head on with courage and strength -even though I’m weak…

I have tried to convey faith, hope, and love in writing on this here blog to inspire, encourage, and support those struggling with depression, mental illness, abuse, and/or suicidal thoughts…  Has it made a difference for anyone?  I don’t really know.  I hope so…  not for my benefit, but for theirs and for yours…

My faith is in JESUS who is my Savior, my Redeemer, my KING of kings and LORD of lords…  My hope is in GOD the FATHER for grace and mercy in times of need…  My love works in and through me by HIS Spirit…  My faith is that you find faith in HIM too…  My hope is that you will hope in HIM too…  My love for and from HIM is for you to find HIS love too…  Faith, hope, and love remain…  And most prominently love is greater than all… And most assuredly love never fails…  HIS lovingkindness endures forever…  HIS mercy endures forever…

A good man brings good things out of the good stored up in his heart, and an evil man brings evil things out of the evil stored up in his heart. For the mouth speaks what the heart is full of.  Luke 6:45

Why do I talk so much about JESUS and spiritual things?  After what HE’s miraculously done with my fallen and broken life, how can I not speak of HIM who overflows my heart and sustains my life…  My life has been radically changed by GOD’s love for me and has made an eternally positive difference all because of JESUS…  So I include HIM in all that I say in some way… Maybe there are those who are turned off by this.  I don’t know.  Maybe there are those who haven’t experienced HIS love and care as of now up to this point, thus being foreign to them and unknown. Maybe there are those who feel let down or abandoned by GOD and blame HIM for all that is wrong in their life.  Maybe there are those who just don’t know what to think or feel about all this.  Is GOD real?  If HE is, will HE help me?  Will HE be there for me?  Will HE see me through the darkness and hard things in this life?  Will HE not abandon me to myself and all that is within that consumes and drowns me?

All of the answers to these questions are “yes” in HIS timing and way…  Now will you only trust HIM and believe… If you do, your life will change and you will find new strength and purpose for a future and a hope… If you do, then you open yourself up to HIS help, to HIS forgiveness, to HIS love, and to HIS comfort and care…  Now to him who is able to do immeasurably more than all we ask or imagine, according to his power that is at work within us… Ephesians 3:20

GOD wants you to come to HIM, to know HIM, to make HIM known, and to love you and through you show love to others;  saved and found by JESUS… “The God who made the world and everything in it is the Lord of heaven and earth and does not live in temples built by human hands. And he is not served by human hands, as if he needed anything. Rather, he himself gives everyone life and breath and everything else. From one man he made all the nations, that they should inhabit the whole earth; and he marked out their appointed times in history and the boundaries of their lands. God did this so that they would seek him and perhaps reach out for him and find him, though he is not far from any one of us. ‘For in him we live and move and have our being.  As some of your own poets have said, ‘We are his offspring.’  Acts 17:24-28

These truths you can believe, trust, and build your very life upon… Here is a trustworthy saying that deserves full acceptance: Christ Jesus came into the world to save sinners—of whom I am the worst. But for that very reason I was shown mercy so that in me, the worst of sinners, Christ Jesus might display his immense patience as an example for those who would believe in him and receive eternal life. Now to the King eternal, immortal, invisible, the only God, be honor and glory for ever and ever. Amen. 1 Timothy  1: 15-17

Are you ready to begin a new journey into freedom by HIS grace and mercy at work in your life?  HE will be redeeming your past, restoring your present, and replenishing you onward into the future and a hope HE has prepared since the beginning before you were even conceived in your mother’s womb and born to face the challenges and brokenness of life moving forward with faith to believe and trust, with hope as an anchor for your soul, and with love HE pours into you by HIS Spirit to now and forever love HIM and love others too…  Jesus replied: “‘Love the Lord your God with all your heart and with all your soul and with all your mind.’  This is the first and greatest commandment. ³⁹ And the second is like it: ‘Love your neighbor as yourself.’  Matthew 22: 37-39

“A new command I give you: Love one another. As I have loved you, so you must love one another. John 13:34

Have you ever wanted someone to be your friend always and forever?  To be there in the most dark and difficult times?  To be there going through what you’re going through? To never have to be alone?  To bring you to a safe and secure place providing for all your needs?  JESUS meets that need and desire…  I will not leave you as orphans; I will come to you. John 14:18

Be strong and courageous. Do not be afraid or terrified because of them, for the LORD your God goes with you; he will never leave you nor forsake you.”  Deuteronomy 31:6

He Himself has said, “I will never leave you nor forsake you.” —Hebrews 13:5

 

How are you?  Really!?  I pray for you…  I am here for you!!…  Sincerely…

Jeff Watts

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Dreams

Dreams birthed yesteryear

Still hold dear

Dreams may come true

Because they include You

Dreams keep future alive

May be why I survived

Dreams anew arrive

Guide inner drive

Dreams expand purpose

Vision seen of service

Dreams bigger reach out

Greater love teach about

Dreams beyond imagination

Go forward toward elation

Dreams forged in isolation

Deep within during tribulation

Dreams You will do

Use me in at least a few working through

Dreams of past to present to future connect

All because You take broken pieces to resurrect

Dreams according to Your will select

For those most in need You direct

Dreams of Salvation You will redeem

For anyone’s life who accepts Your dream

Dreams of turning lives around

Ask and you receive that you may abound

Dreams of rescue that will astound

Seek and by HIM you will be found

Dreams of relationship with GOD renown

JESUS knocks with gentle sound

Dreams you will open your heart’s door

Let HIM in and HIS love impart to adore

Dreams to follow HIM upon the waves at sea

Become the person you always wanted to be

Dreams to follow HIM ashore where He will restore

Become the person you always hoped for 

Dreams to follow HIM all the more

Become the person HE won’t ignore

Dreams to remember HIM on the cross 

You who HE came to die for no longer lost

Dreams do come true in JESUS

All you have to do is believe and trust

Dreams you did not know exist

HE gives what’s missed 

Dreams inspired by GOD persists

HE looks for vessels willing to enlist

Yet

 

Salvation believed

Inspiration received

Adoration achieved

Emancipation relieved

Captivation conceived

 

I may be quiet

Yet 

My mind is thinking of You and all that is Thine

 

I may be silent

Yet

My heart is beating for and with You together to dine

 

I may be resting

Yet

My body is needing Your touch so kind

 

I may be calm

Yet

My soul is yearning for You to restore all that is mine

 

I may be tranquil

Yet

My spirit is awaiting for You to refill within that I may shine

 

I may be of few words

Yet

I can’t thank You enough from deep inside

 

I may be very tired

Yet

I come to You for You within to reside

 

I may not be meditating on Your words often

Yet 

I want to hide them in my heart to always abide

 

I may be depressed

Yet

I continue on in faith, hope, and love so above it again will I rise

 

I may not have that look of joy

Yet

I have Your peace surpassing all understanding guarding my heart and mind

 

I may rarely laugh

Yet

I am serious with prayer and fighting for our family and others each night

 

I may not see You with my eyes

Yet

I believe by faith to please You with hope to no longer deny and love even when life goes awry

 

I may have questions

Yet

I trust You even if I never get answers to why

 

I may still have anxiety and fear at times

Yet

I will walk humbly, seek justice, and love mercy laying down pride

 

I may still await dreams to come true

Yet 

I will let the outcomes that from Your hands in Your plans will decide

 

I may wander some though wiser

Yet

I will learn to walk with You beside

 

I may not like Your discipline in my life

Yet

I discern You love me and I must die to self as You lead and guide

 

I may be weak

Yet

You are my strength and in You I find a Refuge in which to hide

 

I may think too much of past failure

Yet

I will do my best to forget what is behind, press on to run so as to win the prize, continue to fight the good fight with grace and mercy supplied

 

I may not be where I need to be at midlife

Yet

I will learn to do right with Your Word in me applied

 

I may not always be pleasing in Your sight

Yet

I have come so far by Your power and love at work in me comprised

 

I may not have many friends

Yet

I know in You I can always come to confide

 

I may not have overcome to be more than a conqueror

Yet

I will fix my eyes on You until I have arrived in Your arms open wide

 

I may not be mature

Yet

I trust You that I will come forth as gold tried and purified

 

I may not be ready to take on more with ministry

Yet 

I wait on You to work within me continually until qualified

 

I may have stumbled more numerous than I’d like to admit

Yet

I have always turned back to You, called on Your name, and on You alone relied

 

I may have come close to a tragic end

Yet

I have known Your miracle and healing ways that have surprised

 

I may have to go through another episode I really don’t want to face

Yet

I have come to know You are faithful to respond to my cries until it will subside

 

I may have enemies that for my hurt and end have come against

Yet

I know GOD works it all for my good despite how they may undermine

 

Never Die

Your Word bring life

Come alive

Never die

 

My dream of life open wide

Come alive

Never die

 

Your Salvation bring joy inside

Come alive

Never die

 

For family and friends to enjoy inside the Light

Come alive

Never die

 

Your Word to encourage when tried

Come alive

Never die

 

My dream pure and true confide

Come alive

Never die

 

Your Salvation to soul and spirit applied

Come alive

Never die

 

For family and friends to make it through lead and guide

Come alive

Never die

 

Your Word hidden within to abide

Come alive

Never die

 

My dream come to fruition as in You I delight

Come alive

Never die

 

Your Salvation is the mission envision while broken and contrite

Come alive

Never die

 

For family and friends prayed for to be forgiven and listen aright

Come alive

Never die

 

Your Word to bring wisdom and insight

Come alive

Never die

 

My dream to save souls as wise ignite

Come alive

Never die

 

Your Salvation to be brave and fight the good fight

Come alive

Never die

 

For family and friends to enter to live in Heaven by Your Spirit not by might

Come alive

Never die

Kept

Kept by the Spirit into Your Presence in times of need rush

Adept to be a voice for the orphan, with the poor, to those abused, and voiceless

Rep a change of heart about an unchanging message

Helped to weather the storms and calm what rages

Crept through life’s stages and moon phases

Accept mercy anew each day the sun raises

Slept in green pastures to restore my soul that amazes

Recollect HIS goodness to relate with our praises

Respect the LORD for the times HE carried us where only HIS footsteps traces

Wreck of a past held back to go forward now standing firm on the Rock of Ages

Leapt at chance to share the Truth that to our sin erases

Direct our hearts to share the perfect love that away from all fear encases

Reflect HIS face in this race that grace outpaces

Resurrect life to store up treasure above way beyond measure of souls One embraces

Connect with Your Words inside to taste and see that HE is good on a continual basis

Trekked out of the desert holding HIS Mighty Right Hand led to an oasis

Reconnect by delighting in HIM to be given the desires of your heart rather than what the world chases

Protect soul from unnecessary harm when fix on HIM your eyes gazes

Seek and beseech lost souls left faithless or think it pointless

Meet those with little faith to build up a surplus

Reach out to the weak to strengthen in earnest

Of the enemy, world, or man impervious

Go to the front lines now courageous

Tread the lion and cobra until crushed

Fight the good fight to bring about justice

Shine the Light to scatter wickedness

Live free to freely give a life of service

HIS WORD

In the beginning was the Word, and the Word was with God, and the Word was God. He was with God in the beginning. Through him all things were made; without him nothing was made that has been made. In him was life, and that life was the light of all mankind. The light shines in the darkness, and the darkness has not overcome it.  John 1: 1-5

I try to reach you; seek YOU

YOU teach me unique Truth

Truth that sets me and you free

Free to believe; receive LOVE

LOVE perfect casting out fears

Fears disappear finally clear

Clear to see by faith appear

Appear glimpses of Heaven

Heaven is near coming down

Down to lift us up to receive above

Above are thoughts thinking

Thinking of overcoming

Overcoming hope for souls to save

Save you and others cast aside

Aside, fallen, stuck, outcasts

Outcasts out of luck given lifeline

Lifeline held onto until walking

Walking in the LIGHT secure

Secure as sons and daughters found

Found in the Faith, Hope, and LOVE

LOVE never-ending as children of GOD

GOD has the beginning and the last WORD

WORD written & spoken draws you into HIS WORD

??!!…

Would you believe in something greater?

Would you receive Someone greater?

Better late than never to be a lover of the Way, the Truth, and the Life and not a hater!!…

Better now than later!!…

 

Why go through life with just another who cannot save?

Why go through life alone asunder without that Someone brave?

Better by far with the Savior who does purchase you with the life giving blood HE gave!!…

Better when reconciled to the Creator of Heaven and earth who speaks with lightning and thunder in the awesome echoes aloud in surround sound and in the small whispers deep within that may be found to astound; known long before woven in the womb by HIS loving Hands in wonder and ever-present for you to be with HIM lifting you up from the heavy weight your under, far from blunder or plunder, past what encumbers high above beyond the grave!!…

 

What is life without your purpose to find?

What is life without HIS future of hope in mind?

Better to know why you’re here!!…

Better to understand whose you are: for all guilt and shame away from clears, to be guided while HE steers, to be guarded before HE appears, and to be growing in HIM who will draw near as you draw near!!…

 

How are you to respond when you face the end unseen?

How are you to respond when you could meet the KING of kings?

Better to be on your way and now open to be in Heaven where all that’s good once there will bring!!…

Better to return to the only One who will redeem!!…

[“Look! God’s dwelling place is now among the people, and he will dwell with them. They will be his people, and God himself will be with them and be their God. He will wipe every tear from their eyes. There will be no more death’ or mourning or crying or pain, for the old order of things has passed away.” Revelation 21:3-4]

 

Where can you discover the greater love that endures forever?

Where can you discover the greater love that nothing in this life here can ever sever?

Better to call on JESUS from your own mouth and heart, coming as you are, to forgive you for going your own way prone to wander until almost gone, to save you from whatever you may have done wrong, to bring healing to your soul needed all along who will never leave you nor forsake you ever!!…

Better to fall at HIS feet in surrender, tether yourself to HIS mighty righteous right hand that will deliver, and weather through the storms with HIM on the rising waters who understands you can’t hold it together rather than fall away from HIM altogether!!…

 

Will I be accepted with my depression, my mental illness, or my suicidal ideation so real?

Will I be accepted with my fear, my failure, or my lack of faith ordeal?

Better you will be when you come to HIM as you are; able then to handle anything as you yield!!…

Better you will be when you come to HIM as you are with all that you feel until you begin to heal!!…

[Verses of encouragement when dealing with depression]

[Verses of encouragement when dealing with mental illness]

[Verses of encouragement when dealing with fear]

[Verses of encouragement when dealing with failure]

[Verses of encouragement to have more faith]

 

When will HE answer my prayer?

When will HE answer with care?

Better to wait on HIM for HIS timing while in the suffering share, wait on HIM for HIS rescue and repair, wait on HIM for HIS renewed strength to stare down your giants to slay with renewed faith stand up in courage now to dare facing anything that comes your way with HIM beware,  and wait on HIM with thanksgiving to declare!!…

Better to realize when life is unfair that your daily burdens HE does bear, until you’ve grown mature stronger in HIM more aware to show compassion you too needed that once received unto others now give this same care found to be so rare!!…

[“Ask and it will be given to you; seek and you will find; knock and the door will be opened to you. For everyone who asks receives; the one who seeks finds; and to the one who knocks, the door will be opened.”  Matthew 7:7-8]

 

Could you conceive beyond what you can think, ask, or imagine?

Could you perceive the bond with whom HIS own hands have fashioned and holds you knitted together within?

Better to conceive of your life with HIM meant to win!!…

Better to perceive what your life can be with HIM arisen!!…

 

Can I just believe?

Can I just receive?

Yes, it’s your choice to live a new life and the old one leave!!…

Yes, it’s your voice HE longs to hear putting your trust in HIM so your soul will be made whole to cleave with a new heart and a new spirit given for a beautiful tapestry HE will begin to weave!!…

 

Is there a guarantee?

Is there such a thing as being set free?

Those who call on the name of the LORD will be saved and there’s the promise for living on in Heaven eternally!!…

IF the Son sets you free, you will be free indeed!!…

[And you also were included in Christ when you heard the message of truth, the gospel of your salvation. When you believed, you were marked in him with a seal, the promised Holy Spirit, who is a deposit guaranteeing our inheritance until the redemption of those who are God’s possession–to the praise of his glory. Ephesians 1:13-14]