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Somehow will

Feel my way

Until I find YOU

 

Press on still

Heal I pray

Will You bind up their wounds

 

Somehow fill

Appeal one day

Thrill to shine into

 

All those hurting ill

Real hope turns away dismay

Will faith prevail soon

 

Somehow fulfill

Kneel, walk, obey

Skill of love never to fail within HIM; Triune

 

Somehow….Come now…Some way…Some day…

 

Will happen in Your timing

Faith not so blinding

Hope and a future aligning

Pure true Love finding

For new life unwinding

Mercy and compassion reminding

Until LIGHT cascades over the darkness eternally shining

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When you’re ready, you will trust in GOD again… you have that choice, you own that decision only you can make, you have the will to empower trust in HIM whenever you want to practice it…

Trust is a heart and soul thing that grows after you set your mind to begin the endeavor again… You can learn to trust in HIM with moments (like your move to a new place) and choose to trust HIM for healing (like your lifelong journey through trauma/abuse to triumph/astounding) whenever you want… When you fall back to not trusting, from that low point and helpless perspective; you can once again look up in trust to your Heavenly FATHER who gives good gifts and wants to love and care for you… You may choose to trust in moments or a daily decision through prayer (prayer is turning to HIM in trust) and pouring out your heart (through talking to HIM out loud, quietly inside, or writing it out)…

You’re loved and cared for not matter what… You’ll get to know/relearn HIS love and care as you decide to trust when you choose to… I am proud of you when you choose to reach out to those weak in need of love and care… In your weakness, JESUS is strong… Being there for them in being who you are matters and is doing good despite what you may feel or think about yourself… You are showing faith in action; doing GOD’s will in doing HIS Word:

Psalm 41
1 Blessed are those who have regard for the weak;
the Lord delivers them in times of trouble.
2 The Lord protects and preserves them—
they are counted among the blessed in the land—
he does not give them over to the desire of their foes.
3 The Lord sustains them on their sickbed
and restores them from their bed of illness.

verse 1 “regard for the weak”; for me the orphans, for you may be anyone weak you reach out to (orphans, special needs children/adults, homeless, abused and neglected souls, widows/widowers, or elderly)

Focus on these Words above and let it become one of your life verses/life mantra…

These verses helped me hang on, believe and trust, and reach out and one day HE answered these promises in my own life… These awesome Words came true through HIM and through me, for me, and in me… I still cannot fathom the turn-around in my life because of JESUS the Living and active Word bringing this about and GOD the FATHER’s mercy and compassion for me…

Look carefully and choose to believe and trust for these to be your benefits as well:

1) delivers them in times of trouble
2) protects and preserves them / does not give them over to the desire of their foes (who want to steal, kill, or destroy; suicide)
3) restores them from their bed of illness (physically or emotionally or mentally or socially or spiritually; for me all 5)

If HE did it for me; I know HE will do it for you… Why? because HE is true to HIS Word and desires to be faithful in a person’s life
When? in HIS timing; so difficult to wait I know (took years for me) maybe for you quicker than my experience
How? in small and grand ways along the journey; sometimes miraculously
Who? you (for you do have regard for the weak)
Where? inside you

I know I went through what I went through to be a help/support to others weaker… This is ultimately the outcome from what I didn’t think was fair, what I didn’t understand, why I was abandoned, why I was often alone in my trauma and not knowing why GOD wasn’t there bringing me through like I knew HE could; why it wasn’t right a way – yet waited for me to learn mercy and compassion at the core of who I am now… HE took me through the depths of darkness to reach out to anybody now with profound faith, hope, and love… with confidence in HIM and who HE is and what I now know HE can/will do…

Much of my trauma was self-inflicted (so full of guilt and shame) from turning away from GOD in rebellious youthful sin and desires being as lost as one can be. Yet I turned to HIM and HE still answered me… me? why me? why HE didn’t abandon me further? why did HE not leave me in my sin? HIS love is greater than anyone can know or fathom… Now I live to show HIS love I know and continue to attempt to fathom… If I didn’t learn through painful depths to know HIS love, mercy, and compassion; then how would I know HIM as HE is and learn that I could reach those who may be in need… HE will choose and use the weak and unlearned to profound the strong and wise… There is so much darkness and cruelty in this world. HE takes some of us through trauma and darkness so we can be a light that shines in it as HE rescues precious children, men, and women that need HIM… sometimes to reveal what HIS love is through us… We choose to pray for and be there present and intercede for them because we know… we understand… we will stand for them… we will choose to love… we will choose purity… we will love purely… Blessed are the pure in heart, for they will see GOD (Matthew 5:8)…

You’re not a failure… You’re more than a conqueror through HIM who gives you strength… When you are weak come to HIM for rest… When you can’t do it anymore, wait on HIM for renewed strength… HE is faithful to HIS Word even when we are not…

Oh and let’s look at Psalm 41 vs. 4

I said, “Have mercy on me, Lord;
heal me, for I have sinned against you.”

What if we have sinned in some way!! Well I asked the LORD for mercy and to heal me of course… And so, HE healed me… me… and you?… you too!!!…

Ok! So you just got the wave from HIS ocean that was building within me to reach the shore of those needing mercy that will also be a blog post for my website that I have been wanting to write on Psalm 41 for a long, long while… I wrote this for you for sure; yet it is also for anyone else needing encouragement as well…

Feelings can only pick you up so much

Feelings that belittle can bring you down

Feelings come and go like coughs and hiccups

Feelings run amok or ebb and flow with undercurrent to drown

Feelings may overthrow until all you are is stuck

Feelings you only know will linger near or far to smile or to frown

Feelings will too soon betray, empty, and never fill your cup

Feelings will fight deep within leaving you wounded on the battleground

 

How will you show resistance to the enemy bent on killing and stealing

How will you get your deep need within for healing

How will you find an ever present help and a strong refuge never leaving from all that harms concealing

How will you be lifted from the pit of darkness that will grip you back into Light revealing

How will you grow in trust without ever kneeling

How will you go on in hope when your whole being is reeling

How will you overflow in faith to cope without the Holy Spirit sealing

How will you sow in love as 3 chord strand of rope appealing

 

JESUS is the only One who upon this Rock will pick you up

JESUS will lift your countenance bringing Heaven down

JESUS is a constant Refuge who never leaves nor forsakes when in a rut

JESUS runs to catch you amongst the waves so as not to fully drown

JESUS lifts you up from the mud and mire or deep pit with HIS mighty righteous right hand no longer to be stuck

JESUS knows you better than yourself so delight in HIM that joy may abound

JESUS, when you continually come to HIM, will eventually refill your cups

JESUS will give you HIS residing peace healing your wounds to run again in the race until in HIS arms you’re found

 

 

I reminisce…

Fight back;  persistence -found to be free

Temptations attack;  resistance -found purity

No slack;  repentance -found mercy

Take flak;  admittance -found family

Have a knack;  HIS assistance -found empathy

Back on track;  insistence -found grace aplenty

Heavy load unpack;  outdistance -found eternity

No more lack;  coexistence -found love fully

 

If it weren’t for the LORD to reminisce…

I would have torn apart;  ripped in pieces -so haunter makes remiss unsound into self-pity

What would be left if my soul deceases -no longer exist sound silenced empty

You rescued me in perfect love so fear ceases -daunter desist sound heart accept privily

You lighten burdens as Your peace increases -stronger to resist sound mind kept reassuringly

You’re the Giver of new life leases -song astir to persist sound spirit leapt freely

From our chains and our prisons You pardon releases -from wrongs turn away with grace assist sound joyfully adept with purpose and vision equipped fittingly

Dreams come true

When I’m with You

Love enters;  taken up in a new song -all is forgiven of wrong

Mercy centers;  awakens with the dawn -all fears within gone

Grace mentors;  forsaken not, unto Your will now drawn -I’ll follow along

 

Dreams come true

Awaiting strength to renew

Love abides;  in fields of green when reeling to lie down in rest

Mercy hides;  shields while healing what would oppress

Grace provides;  wields away enemies when dealing with trials and tests

 

Dreams come true

Delighting in the Truth

Love finds all that your heart desires to be

Mercy reminds all that your mind aspires to see

Grace shines on all that your soul inspires to free

 

Child’s play pass me by

Wake up to nightmare in the night

Why watch to let me die

Gave up on mercy and compassion deny

Choosing to laugh as my life gone awry

Waiting to see me break down and cry in fright

Locked away so walked away; darkness close tight -for you open day light

Mine left blind -yours the bright side with hope in sight

If you had stuck around why

You’d stand surprised with the dawn as I’d rise

Again and again I rise not giving up the fight

For the Savior for my soul came to find

Lift from the pit carry me home no longer mine

If not for HIM now in me shine, would’ve been left so far behind

HIS love is greater than past memories now forever remind

Of the rescue into new life HE will do, so not stuck in perpetual rewind

 

 

Resiliance

How I’ve come this far

Amazed (life returned beyond the aftermath)

If you only knew who I once was

It would utterly astound

 

Resistance

How I fought so hard (between true life and fear of God’s wrath)

Dazed

If you only knew why and the because

It would be almost tragically profound

 

Distance

How I stalled like an abandoned car

Strayed (off the beaten path away from that which leads to life in the fast lane passed)

If you only knew what sin that leads to death does

It would cause you to turn earnestly around

 

Persistence

How I looked for help high above the stars

Prayed (all my cares and anxieties upon HIM cast)

If you only knew how much I had to trust

It would foster within you to do the same to stand steady on the Rock of Salvation and walk on solid ground

 

Confidence

How I’ve become after faith’s fresh start

Obeyed (for a hope and a future in the LIGHT at last)

If you only knew how HE led me through, up from death’s dust

It would make new mercy every morning be real and true for you too and new hope to abound