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Broken Dream Until Mended Reality

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There is grace for every broken dream

Onward walk to continue being

Onward unseen until mended reality seeing

Onward forward steps keep repeating

Onward go on for you’re worth your heart beating

Onward becoming who you’re meant to be rather than retreating or worse yet leaving

Onward knowing HE lives at the right hand of GOD with scars for you interceding

Onward heeding HIS voice of encouraging to continue enduring and persevering even if for now it’s just breathing

On HIM always lean…

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Press on rather than regress despite feeling depressed

Pass the test to go on beyond the trials and tribulations that oppress

Continue with faith in the SON for making progress

Continue to hope in HIM to find rest

Continue in HIS love which is greatest and will work out what is best

Choose life and blessing over death and cursing that HE died to give you as your inspiring and motivating quest

Draw near to HIM and HE will draw nearer sincerest as you pour out your heart to HIM in confidence rather than those feelings just suppress

Reassess life as a maturing process, mess of sin with guilt and shame confess to find forgiveness, and then will profess HIS evidence realized further along life’s journey of HIS faithfulness

Focus is more when there is less…

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Less to not weigh you down in fear replaced by HIS love held dear

Less worry in your heart found in HIM who makes it disappear

Less weary chasing after empty success that falls aground like tears

Less willful of your own plans that fail here

Less want of the world’s lust wandering into sin that causes pain and torment so severe

Less wasting away in your illness with HIS acceptance of all that you are by caring for yourself to improve mental, emotional, physical, and spiritual health adhere

Less wavering in unbelief by simply believing HE will turn your life around with HIS patience and gentleness steer

Less wondering about what ifs of the past that HE uses in your future to help others made more clear

Less while HE becomes more to you during your extended years

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More faith in HIS truth so you’re no longer unruly that will no longer duly offend

More hope and trust in HIS ways you can truly depend on now that you’re newly opened

More love in HIS life abiding to be a light shining in darkness to give freely and often

More mercy from HIS healing throne of Heaven that is new every morning sent

More compassion from HIS heart to listen to others vent -even from suicide may prevent

More grace from HIS hand to lead and guide you along righteous paths that will leave no regret in retrospect

More of HIS Spirit welcoming within who will comfort you with HIS Presence, counsel you with HIS wisdom, and care for your well-being with moans expressed according to GOD’s will for your life when words of prayer fail to connect

More delighting in HIM to be given the desires of your heart meant to mend your dreams again made relevant where nightmares can’t circumvent

More freedom will come after suffering through a set timeframe where to live is Christ and to die is gain that is effective when wait on GOD’s timing and not your own as you wait to resurrect into HIS arms as Heaven’s resident

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Wait on HIM for new strength returning to soar above the storms on eagle’s wings freeing

Wait on HIM for renewing your mind with truth until having soundness of peace releasing

Wait on HIM for reviving your heart recreating within purity and right desires brought back into the land of the living reconvening

Wait on HIM for rescue unto redemption forthcoming that will restore your soul and implore within you vision, purpose, and meaning that’s increasing

Wait on HIM for refilling your cup to overflowing until refreshing your spirit into HIS will agreeing and being a doer of HIS Word unleashing

Wait on HIM watching as HE wins every battle in your war raging against the enemy who attempts at deceiving

Wait on HIM to direct your steps through open doors revealing

Wait on HIM for HIS promises open handed toward until receiving

Wait on HIM for complete healing that makes you whole whether here on earth or there in Heaven as the great reward for continually believing

Mistakes that I had made

Low self-esteem, empty, ashamed

No identity yet, solo, afraid

High school, one date came, I’m to blame

Still recognize her face and remember her name

Monday came; she stood there waiting, locked gaze in suspended time, then walked away because I couldn’t respond as if in a daze

I pray she knows HIS love all her days…

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Mistakes I dare to share

Open up not sure she’d even care

Return the favor listening, revealing all unaware

College, first relationship, burdens to bear

Found solace for a short time so rare

She had to leave across the sea and I let go too scared

I pray she finds HIM suddenly out of no where

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Mistakes I regret

Awkward, unsure, how to interpret

Searching for identity unkept

College, second relationship, just met

A whirlwind transpires;  I easily make her upset

She gave it one last chance;  I hurt her heart and can’t forget

I pray she experiences HIS joy each day on reset

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Mistakes of getting too close without commitment

Except our faith in GOD, we’d abstain from being intimate

Taking a chance after my suicide attempt and mental illness onset

Singles group in church, third relationship, her a divorcee with a daughter, could we reinvent

GOD would make it clear we weren’t meant to be in marriage represent

She was saddened, but moved on to start her own family circumvent

I pray she always has HIS encouragement and a love for HIM that’s fervent

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Through all my mistakes I came to find HIM anew

My refocus in relationship with HIM intertwined with her and grew

Drawn together as we served HIS children in love’s purpose pure and true

Times well spent with each other set in motion HIS will to pursue

It is evident we were meant to be a family within HIS faith, hope, and love through and through

She has fought to win battles with the enemy as revealed by scars and wounds

She has fought to win battles for me in the midst of my darkest hours now removed

She has fought to win battles for herself of declined health faithful to be there for our children proved

I pray she feels HIS love through me continually, reveals HIS love through our children repeatedly, conceals within HIS love fully to share assuredly, and kneels with me in awe of what the LORD has done mercifully in Heaven one day and then walk together as best friends for all eternity…

Disband after the fight

Rest you weary soul

Only for awhile

Until the next one

Commence

 

Stand up in the Light

Test you bleary hold

Lonely award an extra mile

Still connects among

Immense

 

Hand in hand through the night

Attest anew nearly behold

Boldly forward go past denial

Instill access won

Confidence

 

Planned from the start with love ignite

Professed truth merely uphold

Closely reward into one’s heart worthwhile

Goodwill protects in the long run

In defense

 

HE understands when broken and contrite

Addressed to move inside sincerely mold

Wholly adored build up in support reconcile

Refill to coalesce faith, hope, and love into one’s cup overrun

In mercy evidenced

 

Expand with Heaven’s insight

Expressed for new growth inside clearly be told

Solely afford to overcome each trial

Skills obtain for progress where there once was none

Undeserved recompense

 

Commands to do what’s right

Manifest what’s pure and true that’s dearly unto HIM more valuable than gold

Holy accord become a reflection of the SON beguile

Fulfill HIS Great Commission for Thy will to be done

In watchful suspense

The fight inside was against myself

I’d lose what was good health

Witness my downfall to the edge of Sheol took away a hundredfold  

 

The fight inside my mind

I’d lose over and over

Mental illness took control

 

The fight inside my heart

I’d lose to fears I feared

Brokenness took its toll

 

The fight inside my soul

I’d lose to depression

Darkness took hold

 

The fight inside my spirit

I’d lose what’s left of freedom

Sentence in chains where demons tormented with pain and confusion untold

 

The fight inside I tapped out

I’d lose my life until HE’d step into my cage and win for me

Openness took time for new life to unfold

 

No one knows tomorrow

Except GOD who sees the arrow

Shot through where it will go

Into the straight and narrow

Fade in velocity beyond the bow

Sun down on the horizon below

 

Find me again and pick me up from below

Take me in YOUR Mighty Right hand set in YOUR bow

Take aim into a future and hope along the straight and narrow

Pull me back; shoot me through into YOUR true and proven will let go

YOUR eyes ever on me as one of YOUR chosen few arrows

With vision to see my destiny released into YOUR perfect tomorrow

 

All trust in YOU alone past daydreams in flight

Call thrust into hone past nightmares in sight

Wall bust through continue fast forward in Spirit ignite

Install gust renew strength propel into victory above in my battles YOU fight

Enthrall stardust breakthrough to reflect YOU with insight

Haul robust, true Words reveal trajectory how to make it in this life prove right

 

Haul seed as a sower into hearts grow HIS Words that build a life upon the Rock just right

Enthrall as a shooting star however brief the journey reflect HIM with insight

Install fresh wind that strengthens in HIS grace and mercy grants victory for you HE will always fight

Wall broken down become one with JESUS and the FATHER makes home inside by the Spirit ignite

Call beckons deeper faith within the heart overflowing the soul past nightmares becoming sight

All desires of our hearts in daydreams flight granted when in HIM alone wholly delight

 

 

When will you realize

Hope of Heaven is alive

Found in JESUS Christ

Who died, buried, did rise

Blood that fell on all sides

So much so go unrecognized

Disfigured sought the prize

Win hearts despised

Bought souls as wise

Forgives all sin no matter size

For all you are confides

Accepts all who abides

Beyond failures and tries

An answer for the why’s

Truth be told even if denies

Better than world’s lies

No need for disguise

Grace and mercy applies

Tears kept that never dries

Not left at an end demise

Under shelter of wings hides

Until stronger to arise

On the heights rides

Go to HIM after one dies

HE has keys so HE decides

Choice of humility not of prides

All wrongs will be made rights

Gift given by FATHER of Lights

Broken spirit sacrifice

Heart contrite not despise

Battles faced HE fights

Desires given in HIM delights

Ever-present help in darkest nights

Kept in HIS love all the days of our lives

HE never leaves nor forsakes your cries

Even to the end of time reminds

HE will receive you in HIS arms finds

Faith becomes sight at HIS table dines

Hope becomes Light that forever shines

Love becomes delight that never confines

Eternal life exists for all who unto HIM binds

Why am I inspired late at night

Why not when the sun is bright

I guess the darkness is what you saved me from

I profess YOUR Light given is what has brought my freedom

It’s YOUR blood poured out that has bought my life back from the dead

It’s YOUR Word of life that has taught me to renew my mind to offset dread

It’s YOUR Spirit that has caught my undivided attention to walk on ahead

It’s YOUR Presence that has sought my soul deserving punishment to restore instead

It’s YOUR touch that has given my life vision and purpose to be mission led

It’s YOUR love that has chased away the fear and how now life is lived and interpreted

Make me faithful within

A heart pure and open

Not turn left or right into sin

Walking forward even if broken

Grace filled spaces taken

Straight and narrow not forsaken

Mercy and compassion awaken

Encouragement gladly given

All sin can be forgiven

Cast to the bottom of deepest ocean

As far as east to west forgotten

YOU gave all for many ransom

To be in that number not random

Drawn by HIS Spirit to the Son tandem

Find faith, hope, and love start to fathom

Into Living Water spring forth in rhythm

Overflowing cup no longer hidden

No longer run to what is forbidden

Run to seek the prize on mission

Now that I am set free from prison

All because HE died, buried, risen

HE is worth it to accept HIM

Now is the day of salvation’s decision

Words of life -time to listen

Better than into a well wishin’

There is faith to perceive new vision

There is hope to believe anew driven

There is love to conceive and newly breathe in

There is grace to receive for victorious livin’

There is mercy to leave guilt and shame ridden

There is compassion to grieve until you mend reopen

Know HE loves you when HE chooses to discipline again and again

Know HIS anger lasts only a moment, but HIS favor lasts a lifetime your heart to win

Weeping may last for the night, but joy comes with the morning when the sun will glisten

To whom sadness casts you downward spiral; flood sows in tears when

Hold your breath so as not to drown in sudden death

HE keeps all your tears in a bottle kept in Heaven

 

To whom madness lasts, bruise inward exile, blood flows in fears often

Catch your breath to turn from suicidal death

HE frees you from fears with HIS perfect love made alive again

 

To whom badness blasts, lose backward in denial, judge woes in jeers descend

Take a breath before heading down that wrong path that leads to death

HE sees you and clears the past jeers east to west so all you are is forgiven

 

To whom callous lash out, choose outward hostile grudge, pose a threat it appears

Lose your breath for vengeance refrain from causing misled death

HE can appease your inner turmoil of anger and bitterness when HE appears to be the One to defend bringing peace within 

 

To whom gladness basks in the Good News, forward vital nudge, grows when drawn near to HIM open

Refresh new breath by the Spirit that brings new life beyond all death

HE brings a future and a hope with purpose and vision with a mission to be love now driven

 

Engraved on the palm of YOUR hand

Gave YOUR life so YOU understand

All the times when in weakness I succumbed

Called to find me who was lost, alone, numb

Everything I’ve ever gone through

Waves wash over bringing me into all that is new…

 

Grave danger knocks on the door in demand

Stave off negative attack with faith to stand

Trust in the LORD counters the fear to overcome

Remember YOU fight my battles YOU’ve already won

Hope is in YOU for my strength to renew

Waiting on YOU every time until breakthrough

 

Brave in the calm of YOUR command

Crave YOUR peace to experience first hand

Get back up into the race again run

Forgetting what is behind with face like flint become

Onward straight and narrow abiding in YOU

Until faith becomes sight when dreams come true

 

Forgave with YOUR mercy and compassion so grand

Pave the way, obey the truth, stay the life for a future and hope planned

Back on track as YOU lead and guide for YOUR will be done

Deny myself and pick up my cross to follow YOU into freedom

All worth it in the end if I continue no matter the cost construe

Love is the vision and purpose to pursue until love remains for others accrue