I admit I lost my way
A long time before
I walked away
There was nothing more
A youth to the world did sway
Nothing more to live for
My whole life bent toward decay
Within alone losing a war
Without HIM falling astray
With all of me closing doors
Saying my goodbye that day
No longer a prayer towards
Downward spiral hides sun’s rays
Carried by waves far from shore
Darkness overtakes where demons play
Losing hold of reality to ignore
Thoughts in mind collide into a daze
No longer eating much in store
Thoughts in mind attack into a haze
Depression has reached the core
Mental illness enters a new phase
Suicidal encompasses every pore
No longer can make it out of the maze
A call for help is made too late implore
Dark night of the soul crippling tase
Leave to attempt suicide ending the uproar
A compromised life with past of guilt and shame in fear at did gaze
I recommit to find HIS way
Even though worse off than before
I cry out from far away
There in the distance I want HIM more
A youth Heavenward don’t want to sway
Faith, wavering, believe more to live for
My whole life vent for HIM to save from decay
Within alone, only for HIM invite to fight my war
Without others to help, HE seeks this lost sheep astray
With all of me knocking for HIM to open my heart’s door
Reunion to come inside being there for me every day
Weaker, but stronger in prayer towards
Lifting me up from the pit to see again sun’s rays
Walks on water rescuing from drowning leading me to shore
Darkness is Light to HIM and the demons will flee from play
Winning HE holds my reality and doesn’t ignore
Renewing my mind to get out of a daze
Eating meals again to regain strength in store
Fight the good fight thinking on truth to see through the haze
Depression lifting for HE has reached into my core
With mental illness, HE is strong entering into redemptions phase
Desiring to live right anew with grace, mercy, and compassion releasing from every pore
Now stronger HE leads me into the land of the living out of the maze
A call on HIS name saves me and wasn’t too late for HIM when I’d implore
HE is ever ready and willing to enter the dark night of the soul healing from what did tase
Retrieved me after my attempt from suicide ending the uproar
A new life for a hope and a future free of guilt and shame without fear into HIS eyes will gaze
